update on the blood work

well the blood work didnt really come back good. the doctor said i didnt ovulate this time around neither. i didnt think i had. it was just a feeling that i had. i am to take 150mgs of clomid this next time around and if that doesnt work. i will have to take 200mgs and if that doesnt work i have to go see the doctor and we will talk about what to do next. i so hope that the 150mgs works. i just dont know how much more i can take. i want a baby so much. my dad actually told me today that we just need to stop trying so hard. we have done that and it didnt work. no one understands how it feels unless they have experince it theirselves. well that is about it for now i will try to write more later.

i am so missing mike (my hubby)

i am so missing my hubby mike right now. he had to leave for a training duty.(he is in the army national guard). he will be gone for four weeks. i counted the days up and if i counted right it is about 26 more days before we can see each other again. i hope it goes by fast. i go tomorrow for blood work to see if i ovulated or not this cycle. if i did i am not going to take a test until mike comes home. i just want to take the test with him home. so that way i can wake him up and tell him that we are having a baby. yep he will probably still be asleep when i take a test. that is if af (that time of the month for a woman) does show up. in some ways i hope it dont and when i take that test it will say pregnant. i so want that to happen but i just feel like i didnt ovulated but we will see. it might be a day or two before i actually find out the results of the test from the test i take tomorrow. maybe it wont take that long but that is about how long it took last cycle. well i need go but i will try write more later.

getting started

i am just know getting started on this blog. dont know how much i will be able to keep up with it. might even get my hubby into this to and we can share the blog. alittle about the blog. well i decided to make this blog because me and my hubby have been trying to have a baby for almost 4 years now. we just started on taken clomid. i have had two rounds of clomid. the first round was 50mgs and it didnt work at all.and the second round i had taken 100mgs. i have a doctor's appointment on monday to find out if i ovulated. in some ways i feel like i didnt. but i am still hope and praying that i did. that is all i can do at the moment. i guess if i didnt the doctor will be putting me on 150mgs. but i am just guessing on that. it has been so hard. at times i just sit and wondering why this is happening to us. do we not deserve to be parents. i am trying my hardest not to give up hope and to keep thinking positive. well that is about it for now. i will try to post more later.