another post on opks

sorry i didnt make a post yesterday about the opks for yesterday. they was negative. the line for all three where so light that you could barely make them out.

as for todays are. the one for this morning there wasnt a line at all. the one around noon (well it was alittle later then noon because i wasnt home at noon) the line was so light that you could barely make it out. and this evenings line well it was there but it is was still really light.

i am beginning to wonder if the clomid is going to work this month or not. it is just getting so hard as the days go by and waiting to see if it happens or not.

opks

the opks was all negative today. i thought they might would be. this mornings there was no line at all. the one i took around noon had a very very faint line. and the one i took just a few minutes ago had a line but it was very very very faint to. some part of still feels like the 200mgs of clomid isnt going to work neither.. but we will see. i am trying my hardest to think positive thoughts.

i have started reading in my books on adoption, that i have. sometimes i feel like adoption is something that we are suppose to do. but i still want to try to get pregnant to. who knows we might wand up doing both one day.

well i need to go but i will update tomorrow.

just to took

i just took the last of the clomid tonight. i think the only side of effects i have had so far has been headaches. but i am not to sure if the headaches are from the clomid or from sleeping on a thin pillow. we need to get us some new pillows. i will start using the rest of the opks i have tomorrow. i may use three a day. one in the morning , that at noon, and then about 6 or 7 pm. some part of me feels like this round isnt going to work neither. but i am trying my hardest to stay positive but some part just feels like it isnt going to work. i am trying to stress over it to much. well i need to go and start to get ready for bed. but i will try to get back on tomorrow and let you know how the opks going. if not not tomorrow then the next day.

another round

well the clomid was up to 200mgs. so the 150mgs didnt work. it just gets harder and harder. so i have decided to skip mother's day again this year. it just so hard to see this mother's day adversitments. i am hoping and praying that next year i wont be skipping mother's day. i know my mom and some more family members are going to be mad but i dont care. right now my mind and feelings are important to me. i am glad that mike is home this year so that way i can just curl up next to him that and just forget about the day. well that is it for the update. i will try to update again soon.