feeling alittle sad

i am starting to feel alittle sad and thinking about not posting anymore on some of the ttc message boards that i am on. i dont want to but it is getting hard. it is so hard to see other woman who hasnt been trying all that long get a bfp and me and mike have been trying for 4 years now. i just want to be a mommy and i want mike to be a daddy. dont get me wrong i am so happy for these ladies and i am glad that they are getting their bfps. and i am also happy and glad for my friends to. but i am just feeling left out. i also feel left out by my family to. it just seems like that i am the only one in my family that has had a problem with getting pregnant. it seem like that family members that has tried and wanted to get pregnant gets pregnant. and i am also wondering why cant i get pregnant. i also sometimes feel like that my family doesnt understand. and all they can say to me is dont stress it will happen when god wants to happen do they not think that maybe it isnt god that is stopping us from baby. it is possible that it is something else you know what i mean. and they dont stop to think of my feelings or mike's feelings when it comes to this subject. i am so tired of hearing it will happen dont stress over it. if you have never been though something like this then you dont know how it feels. and also my family just dont get that it hurts when you dont get invited to something because you dont have kids or when you get ingored because you dont have kids. and yes sometimes i feel like my family ingores me because i havent had a baby yet. i know i probably feel that way but i do. i hope if they read that they will understand my feels about it all and quit saying stop stressing over it. and it will happen when god wants it to.

sorry if this a downer. i am just not feeling to happy right now. and i am sorry if i hurted anyones feelings or anything that was my purpose. i just wanted to vent alittle.

update

i just wanted to go ahead and give a little update. lets see where did i leave off the last time i updated you all. i left off on my and mike's anniversary. we have been married for 4 wonderful years. the day of our anniversary went pretty good. we got to spend this year together and i was so happy about that. mike got me a necklace it has a heart pendant with our names on it and two little stones. one is green and one is blue. it is so pretty. he also got me two movies. 27 dresses and 10,000 b.c. and candy and a anniversary card. i got mike a movie, a gift card for a bookstore. and lets see what else did i get him. on a key change. now on for more updates. well our insurances is still messed up so i had to change my doctor's appointment. so instead of july 15 i go to the doctor on sept 4. so we have decided to go on another ttc break until i can get back in to see the doctor. dont you hate it when your insurance gets messed up. that has pretty much been what has gone on so far. i will try to update some more in a few weeks or so.