things are getting hard.

things are starting to get hard. see today my sister inlaw had to go to the doctor. she had to see a obgyn. (before you ask no she isnt pregnant). i was sitting in the waiting with my mom and nephew and there was all these pregnant women sitting around. okay not a whole lot like one or two but it seemed like a whole lot. it kind of started getting to me. there was this one pregnant woman was talking to my mom and she was telling my mom how when she was pregnant the first time her and her sister was pregnant at the sametime and they are pregnant again at the same time. i just had to get up and go outside. it is really starting to hurt. i have had moments where it feels like my heart is breaking. and if i hear it will happen when god feels like you are ready. how in the heck do you know (talking about these people that has said that to me.) that god is not ready for me and mike to have a baby. these people do not know that. i have had people to tell me not to stress over it. now theses people that tells me that has never had a problem with getting pregnant. i know my family might get alittle upset about this part and i am sorry for saying. the only people that knows what it is like and know how i feel is my friends that are having problems with getting pregnant to. my family doesnt know how it feels. it hurts alot. and like when i start to talk to about to some of my family members it just seems like they are saying in their heads stop whining about it and get over it. and like i said to my family members that is reading this i am sorry you are upset but that is how i feel.