some random thoughts

here are some random thoughts i have had the last few days.

dec. 29> well mike is not in the u.s. anymore. and it is so lonely without him here but i am trying to take it one day at a time. i know that if i can keep myself busy then the time will go by fast. i was going to go visit some friends in jan but jan isnt going to be a good month for that, money wise. got some bills that still needs to be caught up good. got my nephew's 16th birthday. can you believe that i will have a 16 year old nephew. i cant. sometimes i wish they would stop growing so i would stop ageing. i plan on making my nephew's birthday cake. i will post pictures of it when i get it made. and i am still working on the baby blanket for my cousin. i probably will have it done before jan is over with. i am also helping planning a baby shower for my cousin in april. so i have things i need to do for that and stuff to buy up for a gift. i am putting together a really big gift for her from me and mike. well i better stop talking about the gift before i actually say what it is LOL. so if the cousin that is pregnant and the baby shower is for is reading this i am not going to tell you what it is LOL. if you have any ideas for the baby shower please let me know. even of different things some one might need for a baby.

(okay on dec. 30 i didnt write anything done so that day is being skipped)

dec. 31> i got to talk to mike today. it was so good to hear his voice even if we only got to talk for 13 minutes and 27 seconds. yep i looked up how long we talked for. i wasnt expecting to hear him this soon but i am glad and happy that he called. he sounded like he was getting a cold but if you think about it he probably is because of the change of weather. the weather is different there then here. if you didnt know that already. i cant believe that tomorrow it will be a new year. i just hope that the new year brings everyone joy and peace. it is so lonely spending new years without mike. i probably will just go to bed soon. i just dont feel like spending new years with anyone but mike and he isnt here to spend it with.

well that is my thoughts for the pass few days.

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERY I HOPE YOU ALL ARE STAYING SAFE TONIGHT.

hope everyone had a good christmas

how my christmas went. it went pretty good. the bestest part was spending it with mike. i also got to spend it with my family to. and we (me and mike) went down to see his family. had a good time there to. it had been awhile sents we seen his family and it was good to see them. it was good to see mike happy and his happiest is the most important thing to me. i got to spend a week and 6 days with with mike. well more like a week and 5 days. mike came in on 13th of dec and left on the 26th going back to ks. mike got me a ring and a pair of boots for christmas. i went back to the doctor (a yearly thing. if you are a woman you know what i mean) and everything is still the same. still cant get pregnant. but all my blood work came back good (like my thyroid levels are good ). lets see what else went on over christmas and while mike was home. i think that is pretty much it. i am not going to be going nothing for new years eve. that night is going to be kind of hard because mike wont be here. so i probably will go to bed before midnight. then on new years day i will be spending it with my family 9that is if my brother and sister and their families comes over here to my parents house.) if they do i probably will be taken more pictures of everyone. well i guess i need to go and i will write again after the new year.

I HOPE YOU ALL HAVE A SAFE AND HAPPY NEW YEAR

it has been awhile

i know it has been awhile sents the last time i wrote. things has been alittle stressful and busy to. mike got to come home for a few days for veteran's day. that was a great weekend there. i got to spend it with him. i also went christmas shopping last month (got all my christmas shopping done in nov to.). i think i spent way to much again this year on gifts. but glad we had the little extra money to do it because it will be worth it. the week before thanksgiving i got sick. i had a realy bad sore throat and plus my tonsils was all swollen and they looked bad to. i couldnt eat nothing but ice cream and pudding and the liquid part of soups then. yep i went to the doctor. i got put on antibotics and allergy meds. and i am feeling awhole lot better now. actually i started feeling better the sunday or monday before thanksgiving one. (which i like say the week of thanksgiving LOL). i was beginning to wonder if i was going to feel better though. let me tell you something you would think i would have gotten choked on the antibotics (it was in pill form and not liquid) when my throat and tonsils was so swollen but no i started to choke alittle on them after all the swelling went down. so glad i dont have to taken them anymore. well mike got to come home for thanksgiving. and that was so great to spend thanksgiving with just mike. on thanksgiving day it was just me and mike and no one else. it was so wonderful. even though i did start to get sick to my stomach that evening but it got to feel better that night. so it still didnt mess up our plans. well went to the store on friday (the friday they call black friday) but we didnt really go to the store because all the sales. we went to get a birthday cake. then on saturday (nov. 29) we had a birthday party to go to. the need for the birthday cake. it was our nephew's 7th birthday. back in oct i had talk to our nephew about having his uncle mike's birthday party at the same time has his and he said okay. so we had a birthday party for mike then to. that was fun. we had it at pizza hut. there really wasnt to many people that came to the party but we still had fun though. then that night me and mike went and watched twilight. so love that movie. (also love the book to) cant wait for it to come out on dvd. then on sunday mike had to leave again. so been alittle said about that but i should be getting to see him again for awhile soon and i cant wait to see him. i just wish we was together and not apart. it sucks that we cant be together but hopefully in a year or so we wont be apart anymore and we get back to ttc. i have a doctor's appointment this month. it is just the yearly checkup so nothing to worry about. but i am going to talk to the doctor about my thyroid meds. i just dont think it is working anymore. my hands and feet have been staying cold and i have been really tired. and that is how i felt before i started taken my thyroid meds. so i think it might be time to change it up.

well that is pretty much what all that has been going on. i will try not to wait until next year to update you all again.