updating you

i just thought i would update you all. mike has been gone for nearly 2 monthes now. it has been the longest 2 monthes so far. at least it has felt like it has been the longest. i have been reading alot here lately. i also been trying to exercise some. it is going good. i think i might can see that i am loosing weight but in some ways i cant. been trying to get out of the house to do things. but it has been hard to find away of going or people to do things. they just about always have something planned. so i try not interude in on their plans with their family. yesterday afternoon me, my sister, and cousin went shopping ( i got the rest of the stuff i am going to give my cousin at her baby shower. just like the decoration and the games and i will have everything. well besides food but that can weight until april lol.) last night me and my sister and cousin went to the movies to. we watched medea goes to jail. a very funny movie. i recommend you all to go and watch it. you will laugh a whole lot.

i think i am trying to get a cold again or my allergies are just going crazy one. it started the other day and it just seems to have gotten alittle worse. like right now my nose is stuffy and my throat is itchy. (at least it isnt like it was back in nov and the last time was sick which i think was in jan.) and i have been coughing some. i am sure i will start to feel better soon though. at least that is what i keep telling myself.

my grandmother was in teh hostipal again. she was in the hostipal for the same reason when she was in the hostipal last month. she is back at home now though. but they still havent found out what is wrong with her. stupid doctors. i bet if it was their grandmother they would have found out why she has been so sick.

well i am going to go but i will try to update more later.

oh wow (how the time flies)

i was brushing my teeth last night and it hit me. wow it has been over a month sents mike has been gone. at times it still feels like he just left. alot of the time it just seems the days are just dragging by. but i guess they are nto really. dont ask me how i am keeping myself busy because i really dont know. because sometimes it doesnt seem like i have nothing to do. i have been reading alot here lately. i think i have read like 8 books in about 2 or 3 weeks. i know that doesnt seem like alot to some people but to some it does. there has been times where i have read more then that in that time frame. i also have been exercising again to. right now i am doing 10 of 10 on the ab lounger and walking a mile and half on teh treadmil in the mornings. i plan on walking two miles next week. i also have this exercising dvd called flirtygirlfitness. that i have been using in the evenings. i just really started using the dvd this week so i really cant tell if it is working or not yet. going to give it a couple of weeks. but let me tell you that it is a workout. while i am doing the rounte i can feel my muscles in my legs working. i am not doing the complete rounte yet because it is a hard work out. and i get tired after about 10 minutes. i dont think i am going some of the moves just right but i am trying. i think it is going to be awhile before i get it just right. other then all that i have been sick to. well i was sick for about a week and half to two weeks last month. so i didnt do any exercising when i was. well i guess i will go but i will try to write more later. i just wanted to get on here and say oh the time is flying by.

so far this year

so far this year has been like a roller coaster in some ways. the beginning of the year my grandmother got put in the hostipal. she was in the hostipal for i think like two weeks or longer. i know it was close to something like that. there for awhile i think it was a touch and go for my grandmother. but she pulled though. she is doing better now. a week ago i get a email from mike tell me that his sister emailed him and told him that his grandmother was in the hostipal and that they didnt think she had long to live. well wednesday night i get a call from my sil saying that their grandmother may not live though out the night. well thrusday morning i get up to a voice mail on my phone saying that their grandmother had passed way. so i had to let mike know. he had done told me if something happened just email him. so i had to send him that email. that is the hardest email i have ever had to send. and yesterday me and my sister went to the funeral. so that way we could be there for mike. so far this year has been a roller coaster. i just hope that the rest of the year goes better.

six years ago

six years ago today i was on the internet. in a yahoo chat room. i seen this user name that caught my eye. at first i wasnt going to say hi but alittle voice told me to or i would be missing out on something. so i said hi. this person said hi and told me their name. i bet you wondering what that persons name is. his name is mike (if you wondering, yes i am talking about my hubby) we talked for awhile. i can not tell you how long we actually talked because i really dont know, but it was along time. we talked about everythign we could think of to talk about. we probably would have talked all day and night but we both had to go. but we talked the next day and the next. i think it was like the third or fourth day that we had been talking that we had got to talking about valentine's day. i told him even though i had dated guys before but i had never recieved a valentine's gift. he told me he had never gotten one neither. then the next day he asked if he could send me something. i told him he didnt have to and he told me yes he did. so i gave him my address. (yes i know what you are thinking. only after we had been talking online for a few days i gave him my address. but i just knew i could trust him. something just told me i could) and yes he gave me his address. and yes i sent him something for valentine's to. so on or around valentine's i get something from the ups. i open this box up and it was a heart shape box full of dove candy and a valentine card. (i still have the card.) i think he also sent me a phone card so that way we could talk on the phone. so we talked and chatted and wrote letters and emails to each other until may. on easter he sents me a easter basket full of candy. i mean it was alot of candy. if it hadnt been for my nephew that i was babysitting at that time. i would have never got all that candy ate. well that is enought of the story for. will tell more in may. so stay tune.

mike i am glad i said hi to you six years ago. these past six years has been the most wonderful and that is counting the down times. you know what those down times i am talking about.

I LOVE YOU AND ALWAYS WILL.