pray for my family

there really isnt much to update on with ttc but i just wanted to take the time and ask my readers (that is if i actually have readers lol) to pray for my sister and her family. one day last week my sister's husband had a stroke at work and was carried to the hospital. right now he is in a coma and has started breathing a little on his own as of this morning but please pray for my sister and her family. pray that he continues to improve and wakes up and that my sister and their three kids stays strong in during this time of need.

thanks.

it's easter

just wanted to wish everyone a happy easter. i hope you all have a wonderful day.

already april

yep it is april already. can you believe it. at times it feels like yesterday that it was turning jan. but nope it is april. the trees are all bloomed out. there are some flowers that are bloomed out. spring is in the air. it is already starting to get hot. it has been in the 80s the pass couple of weeks. i think there may have been a day or two that it got close to 90. i have enjoyed listening to the birds sing. just wish i have been able to sit outside some here lately but no my allergies will not let me. and yes i have allergy meds but they do not work. and i have tried everything and nothing has helped. but i will get though my allergies i always have and i always will. i just hope that it never comes down to me having surgery because of them. i am scared to have any kind of surgery.

okay lets move on. march was a pretty good month. had a niece to turn 18 years old. we wish we could have been there to celebrate her birthday with her. we went down to houston for alittle vacation it was pretty good. we went to the space center, the aquarium, and the zoo. they was decent places to go but not the most exciting. so not worth the money in some ways. we did get to do a trolly ride at the space center and went to see where the train with the equipment for space (that is the only way i know how to put it lol). the aquarium really wasnt worth the money at all. they didnt have to many fish or sea animals. didnt really have to many rides at all. we did ride the carousel together and mike rode a ride that went up and then came back down. let me tell you that ride just didnt look like all the others we have seen like it. it didnt came down all that fast like some of them do. we rode the train ride to see the sharks but let me tell you they need to fix it where the gas fumes from the train is not brothering people because i think that is what really messed up my sinuses. i was doing pretty good with them until that. the only good thing about the aquarium was the restaurant. they had a burger that was really good. i had never had a hamburger in places like that that was really good. the zoo was okay it wasnt the best that we have been to but it was okay and did come close to be worth the money lol. but then again i have always liked going to the zoo to see all the animals. all in all we had a good time and what made it great was getting to spend time with mike.

lets move on to what all we have planned for april. april is going to be a semi busy month for us. we got a military ball coming up. which it is coming up in three days. i can not wait for that day to get here and to get over with. so not looking forward to wearing heals. if i knew i could get away with wearing either my boots or tennis shoes up under my dress i so would. (right now the heals are hurting my foot since i hurt the other day by hitting the stool. i think i bruised it up really good. at least that is what i am hoping. it doesnt feel broke or anything like that ). we also are having this get together for some of the soldiers. that in itself is going to be a very busy day. i think we invited like over a 100 something people to it and so far only maybe a handful has said that they was coming. we have some of the decoration but there is a few more things i need to get and i will be done with that. yes when i throw a party i got to have decoration lol. we like the food for it. we wish that we could be there for my cousin that is getting married this month but there is no way that we can. but we will be thinking about her on her special day. that is pretty much it for april. maybe it will go by slow so that we all can enjoy the nice weather before it does turn off really hot.

here is another april

here is another april that is going to go by with out being pregnant or having a baby already. i am so tired of this. i wonder what i have done to be punished by not being a mom. i know i would make a good mother and mike would make a good dad. actually he would be a wonderful father. he is the type of person to put others before hisself. and i am so tired of hearing the phrase it will happen when god is ready for you to be a parent. no one knows what god has  in store for mike and i. the only one that knows is god hisself. so i think people needs to stop saying that because it hurts everytime i hear it because you do not know what god has in store for us. we do not know what he has in store for us but i do feel like he doesnt want us going though all this heartache of trying to have a child. the beginning of this year it looked like we was going to have money to either goes toward adoption or the fertility drugs one and now it looks like it isnt going to happen. we have had to deep into our savings to either help with paying bills or to eat one. yes we did go on vacation but we did not use that much of the savings for vacation. it all has pretty much went towards bills and food. i just feel that something is going to have change before i just give up on trying to be a parent. i am getting really close to. because i am tired of crying over it and tired of the hurt.

if anyone reads this please keep us in your prayers. we really could use them.