happy birthday to me

to day is my birthday. i turned 28 years old. and i am alittle sad about it. now i am not sad about turning 28 but sad that i had always thought i would be a mother by now. i know some people might not understand that. i know some of my family doesnt understand that because they have kids and most of them had them before they was 28 years old. i will probably be 30 or older before i am a mother. dont get me wrong there is nothing wrong with having a baby at the age of 30 or older but i had always seen myself having a baby younger then that. yeah i still have two years before i am 30. but i just feel like that is going to be the age i will be by the time i get pregnant. well that is all for now i need to go and get ready to go out with mike (my hubby) we are going to go and celebrate my birthday.

what is sexy

the other day i was talking to my niece and it got me thinking about this so i thought i would share it with you.

what is sexy? is sexy short skirts or dress, shirts that barely cover you. shorts that shows have of your ass. is sexy blonde, red, brown, black hair. is sexy letting a guy see everything you have.

to me sexy is the way you walk/ carry yourself. sexy is how you take care of yourself. sexy is wearing clothes that fit you just right. sexy is being mysterious.

so what is sexy to you. feel free to say what sexy is to you.

why is it

why is it that some family members treats their friends more like family then their own family members. why is it that they let their friends know stuff that is going on (example like how their kids are doing in school or if something had to another family member) but they cant say a thing to their our family members about it. also why is it that some family members only talk to you after you say something to them. also why is that some family members is nice to you infront of your face but talks shit about you behind your back. ( i know that happens to me all the time) yeah i will emit that i have talked about some family members behind their backs but you know something it is not about shit and i am not the one the that usually starts it and plus it is never bad and i am pretty sure that they know i am talking about them. also why is it that at a family gathering your family choose to ingore you. if you going to ingore me at a family gathering then just dont invite me anymore (and yes that happens to me at just about all the family gatherings that we have). do they not realize what it does to the family. it pulls family apart. and it also makes you feel like you are not part of the family and makes you feel unlove and like you are being ingored. i have felt like this by some of my family members. and i am sure they know who they are and i am getting tired of it. if you dont want me as a family member just so and i will never speak to you again and i will never invite you to anything again.