11 monthes down

it has been 11 monthes sents mike left for this deployment. it has been a long 11 monthes. we still have like several more weeks to go. at least that is what we are hoping. i dont know the date because mike is wanting to surprise me so he isnt telling me when will be home. but i promise that when he gets home i will let you all know. nov was a busy month for me. i started to carry my junk that i have had at my parents back to my and mike's house. i didnt realize that i had so much junk until i started moving it all lol. i finished up my christmas shopping in nov to. i think that mike will love everything i got him. i went to see the new moon movie with my sister and nieces. it was really good. i recommend everyone to go and see it. i made two birthday cakes for two of my nephews. of course thee is pictures. go and look in the birthday parties album and take a look at them and comment (yep i am asking for comments lol). i made a cake for thanksgiving to. dec is going to be a busy month for me to. lets see what i can think of that i will be doing this month. oh i know getting ready for mike to come home lol. i have a little get together for cousin this month. it will be on the only weekend that i really only have that is a free weekend. i will have pictures from that to. there isnt to many people invited to that. just a few family members. i will be going to disney world with mike sometime this month. that is going to be so much fun. i will have lots of pictures from that to. and of course there will be christmas. christmas will be a very happy time. mike should be home by then. well we are hoping that he will be. that is pretty much all i can think of at the moment but if i think of anything else i will let you know lol.

oh yeah the pictures from disney world and christmas it maybe late jan or early feb one when i will be able to post them. as that i wont have internet after next weekend sometime until late jan or feb one. but i will post them as soon as i can.

well i am going to end this update but i will try to update you more later.

10 monthes down

10 monthes down and still way to many days to go. the month of oct was busy month for me. the beginning of the month i had my parents anniversary party that went good. then after that i gotten sick. stayed sick for nearly 2 weeks (no it wasnt the flu just had a really bad cold. i did tell my two youngest nephews that i had mad cow (just joking around with them) and now they call me mad cow at times lol). one of my nephews birthday was in oct. i made his birthday cake. i didnt get a picture of it because i was sick and didnt think of taken a picture. and yes i wore a mask to keep from breathing on the cake and kept my hands washed while i was making it. didnt want anyone else to get sick because of me. then i had a halloween party to. it went good. that was pretty much it. well i did finished one of mike's birthday gifts that i was making for him. and i finished my christmas shopping for my family. and i only like to get is stuff for mike. which i really dont have no idea what i am going to get him but i will think of something. i also went back to the doctor. as some of you know that me and mike has been trying to have a baby and we are having troubles with it. well we have tried fertility drugs. we are going to try one more round of this fertility drug that the doctor gave me and if that doesnt work we will be trying something different but just keep your fingers crossed and toes to lol and pray that me and mike gets pregnant when he gets home. nov is going to be a busy month also. i have to buy the things for mike for christmas. i got to make my two youngest nephews birthday cakes. i promised them i would so i am going to make the. one is going to be transformers and the other is going to be a g i joe cake. and of course cant forget about thanksgiving. mmm dressing. oh yeah i also cant forget about me and my nieces and my sister are going to go and watch the new moon movie. that is going to be a fun day there. and i will continue to carry things i dont need here at my parents home. plus there is just somethings that is just in my way. i am so glad that i am able to start moving some my things to my and mike's home. dont get me wrong i have enjoyed my stay here at my parents but i want to be home with mike.

well that is it for a update right now but i will try to update you again as soon as i can. i hope you all are doing good.

9 monthes

9 monthes down and still way to many to go. we are finally in the double numbers. not going to give the exact numbers so dont ask. mike has been doing good. he is just so ready to be home. i am doing okay just trying to stay busy. been planning a anniversary party for my parents (my brother and sister is helping with that to LOL). they will be married for 35 years ( i think that is right) on oct 4. i will post pictures sometime after the party. maybe sometime next week. also been planning the halloween party (well mainly getting things for it ). i didnt read as much in sept because i was busy with crocheting. i made a diaper bag for a friend. i will post pictures when i can. and i am also making a gift for mike but i am not telling you what it is. maybe after mike gets to see it i will tell you want it is. dont want him to find out what it is until i have it all done. been busying thinking of and buying christmas gifts. i have all of my dad's part of one for one of our nephews. and i got a few things order. i know what people are thinking. why in the world is she starting on christmas gifts. well that is because of two reasons. one is because i like to try to have all done by thanksgiving so that way i can enjoy the holidays. and two after thanksgiving up until christmas the stores are really crazy. so i want to try to avoid that as much as possible.

oct is going to be a busy with month for me. my parents anniversary party, a nephew's birthday party, and the halloween party. oh yeah and the finishing up my christmas shopping well i may try to finish that up like the first of nov. i may also try to read some but i dont know about that with everything else i have to do.

well that is all there is for now but i will try to write more later.

8 monthes down

8 monthes down and still way to may to go. theses pass several monthes has went by fast. it still seems like yesterday that mike was leaving. i have missed him so much (and still missing him so much). but i am getting though this. i have been trying to stay busy (but i am starting to feel like i have to much stuff going on.) last month i started planning a halloween party. i got the invitations bought and gave (well i still like to hand out three more but i will get them handed out this weekend though. at least i hope i will be able to. ) i also bought a few things to go on a halloween cake. and i made some ghost to for a ghost hunt for the halloween party. also bought my costume. i am going to dress up like a gyspy. i may read peoples future. (i wonder what all i can come up with LOL.) i am also helping my brother and sister with planning a anniversary party for our parents. that will be on oct. 4 so this month of sept will be busy busy. and like i said i feel like i am putting to much on me. i was going to say i havent read as much in aug as i had been but that turned out to be wrong. like the last week or so of aug i got reading and i think i read all together for the month of like 5 or 6 books. i know some people may say that isnt many but it kind of is esspecially with some of the books being thick. mike is doing good. he is just ready to be home. i am ready for him to be home to. there has been days that i just want him now. but i know he will be home soon enough and we will be spending all our time together. up til he has to go back to work.. i cant believe how fast the month of aug went by. maybe sept will go by fast to. i guess it probably will with everything i have to do. i am also thinking of going ahead and starting on my christmas shopping this month. but we will see. i also got to buy the stuff to make a cake for one of my nephews birthday. that is at the beginning of oct. so that will be two cakes i have to make. and in nov. i have to make two cakes then to. and then after that i am not going to make a cake for awhile. at least i am going to try not to LOL.

well that is it for right now. but i will try to update you all again when i get the chance. i hope you all are doing good.

my birthday

i have had a good day today on. didnt have much planned but eating cake and ice cream with my family. nope no one made me my cake. it was store bought so no pictures. but that is okay. if you wonder what all i got for my birthday lets see. from my parents i got 25 dollars and a card. from my brother and his family i got a card and i didnt get nothing from my sister but i wasnt expecting it. i really wasnt expecting anything from my brother. i know they have kids that needs taken care of. so all i was really wanting from all them was spending time with them and i got that. now to the things mike got me. he got me two books, a bracelet (twilight), i also got a auburn jersey (and yes i love the jersey.) and i got three most wonderful gifts from him. one is a charm bracelet (it is kind of from the twilight to. so i got two bracelets), he sent me a photo of him. and i got to hear his voice today. that was really the most wonderful gift i got this year. wish he could have been home to spend it with me but at least i got to hear his voice. i also got a surprise today to. mike's oldest sister called to wish me a happy birthday. i have gotten a gift from her and her family one time before but never a phone call wishing me happy birthday. i have some pictures that i will be uploading soon.

well that has been my birthday. thanks to everyone that has wished me a happy birthday.

just updating alittle

i just thought i would do alittle updating. we are half way though this month. can you believe it. i sure cant.. things has been going okay so far this month. i have been staying busy. havent read as much as i did last month so far. but i have read some. i have crocheted some this month. i crocheted alittle purse for my youngest niece. i havent gotten it to her yet because i havent gotten to see her. she has been busy with school and church. i also crocheted some ghost for a ghost hunt at the halloween party i am throwing. the internet was messed up some this month but so far it is working pretty good. oh yeah in 15 days i will be 29 years old. can you believe i will be 29 years old. i cant sometimes. sometimes i feel older and sometimes i feel younger. i am not going to be doing anything special for my birthday. if mike was going to be home we probably would be but he isnt. we may do something when he comes home when ever that will be. not to sure though what i will be doing for my birthday may just be sitting around the house like usual. but i will make a blog post about my birthday on the night of my birthday. well i cant think of anything else to update you on but i will write more later.

7 monthes

7 monthes down and still way to many to go. these pass 7 monthes has been long. well at least it has seemed like it at times. the month of july was kind of a busy month. i wont go into a complete detail (would take to long to write lol). but i will write alittle. done wrote about my 4th of july. so i wont tell you about that again. i have been trying to keep myself busy. i have been reading alot again this month. i cant tell you how many books i have read but it has been alot. then there was one weekend where i shut my left hand in my sister inlaw's van door. and yes it was the sliding door. it bruised my ring finger up really good. so i had to take off my wedding band because of the swelling. i so hated doing that so much. but i finally got to put it back on again. so glad about it. then the next weekend after hurting my hand me , my sister and nieces went shopping in huntsville. that was like a 4 hour trip all around. 2 hours of driving up there and 2 hours back. i think we spent like 4 or 5 hours in the mall. at least i think that is about right. really not sure on the time we spent in the mall. then we left the indoor mall and went to the outdoor mall. (well the stores was indoors but you had to walk outside to the different stores) and that was fun to. probably would have been more fun if i hadnt been tired already and if it wasnt hot. i am going to try to do alot of things this month. dont know yet what all i will be doing but i will find something to do. i do know that i will be carrying my nephews (the three oldest ones) to the movies and that will probably be it but not to sure yet. i am not going to be having that birthday party for myself but that is okay it probably wouldnt have been much fun without mike.

well i need to get going but i will try to update again later. i hope you all are doing good.

my 4th of july

my 4th of july went okay, just missed mike like crazy but i still had a good day. i got up alittle before 6 on the 4th. i had alot to do before everyone started showing up for the cookout. i had to decorate teh cake i made. then i had to decorate the outside of the house. my oldest niece had stayed the night so that way she could help out with decorating. we had to blow balloons up and put streamers on trees. and other things. then about 9 or 930 my brother and his family showed up (all my but his oldest son. he had to go into work) so that way my sister inlaw and him could start on cooking. had alot of meats that needed to be cooked. then my sister showed up about 10 to help to about 1130 or 12 everyone started showing up. then about 1230 or 1 we ate then we all just sit around talked and hung out. my oldest niece started throwing watermelon at us. so i got a piece and throw it back at her. i also had one of my nephews put ice down her shirt. you should have seen her face. my sister took pictures i will try to see if she will email them two pictures to me so i can upload them to here. me, my sister, my nieces and nephews, and a few cousins played basketball that was fun. then we had a little bonfire and roasted marshmallows and about 830 pm the firework show started. first the bottlerockets and then the really pretty ones. and yes of course i have pictures. one of my nephews and nieces took pictures of everyone and i took them of the fireworks. so in all i had a good time on the fourth of july. just wish that mike could have been here.

i hope you all had a good fourth.

5 years ago today

5 years ago on this date me and mike had gotten married. it was along engagment. okay you may not think that a year is all that long but it was for me LOL. there was days during our engagment that i wish we was already married but we both wanted to wait until we had everything and we didnt want to rush getting it all together. we had to pay for just about everything for our wedding except for the food and my wedding dress. my parents paid for the food and my wedding dress. we was wanting to have a outside wedding but we could never find a place that we liked and that was cheap. so we got married in a church. we wasnt a member of a church so i had to call around to some churches. i called this one churh and they was wanting us to pay for nearly $500 for the use of the church but we had to clean up and we couldnt use it for the rehearsel and we couldnt decorate. so that wasnt worth it. so i called this other church and they only wanted what we could afford to donate. so we went with that church. and we got to use it for the rehearsal and we could decorate to. pluse we had to clean up but it was worth it all. i think we had donated like a $100 (we wasnt made out of money then or now lol). first our colors was going to be purple and silver but everyone kept saying that wasnt a pretty colors for a wedding. then it was going to be blue, a pale yellow, and a cream color. but i think we really didnt have a set color because i got tired of everyone telling me i should have this color or that. i didnt get to pick out my wedding dress neither. i couldnt never get anyone to carry me to look at dresses. so a aunt went to this store that sells wedding dress cheap and picked one out. the first one i really loved it but it didnt fit. so we sent it back to her and she carried it back and picked out another one and sent it to me. it fit. i liked it but i loved that first one. i wish it had fit. the rehearsal went good just alittle long. i think i didnt get in bed until late that night. then i got up early the day of the wedding but i slept good the night before. i think that was because me and mike stayed together. i know what you are thinking the bride and groom isnt suppose to see each other until the bride is walking down the aisle but we didnt care. we wanted to be together. i think it helped with the nerves and helped us sleep better. so we got up early the day of the wedding and started getting ready. i waited until we got to the church to put my dress on. i thought mike was so hot in his tux. ( i wonder if i could get him to another tux on LOL). my family was suppose to show up like a hour before the wedding started so that way we could have gotten pictures taken. but nope they didnt show up until like 10 minutes until the wedding and then we had to rush to get dressed. no i didnt have my wedding dress on yet because i didnt want to sit in a room by myself until they got there. i didnt do anything special with my hair. didnt really have help with it. a cousin help me up my veil on and i had to put my own make up on. well i didnt mind putting my own make up on though. t it wasnt nothing special really. i wanted big curls all over my hair but i didnt have help to get them. you may be wondering well she going to tell us how many people we invited. well we invited like a 100 people but only 10 should up. i walk down the aisle and i see mike standing up there under the arch and i though how did i get so lucky to have met this man and to have him marrying me. if you wondering if we had cried or not, nope we didnt. because we had made a deal that we will not cry. well everything goes smoothly and we get married and have the reception and then we leave to go on our honeymoon to six flags and that is all i am saying on that.

so that is the story of our wedding. and the pass five years have been wonderful. and i am pretty sure that we will have plenty more wonderful years together.

6 monthes down

6 monthes down and still way to many to go. sometimes the days seems to be flying by and some days it doesnt. mike has been pretty busy the pass month or so. we havent gotten to chat all that much. but the days we do get to chat is good days. there is some days that when we dont get to chat we at least get to email each other back and forth and those days are good days to. i have been trying to busy but there is days that i dont have anything to do. i have went shopping a few times. got a few things for mike. i even got things for him for our anniversary. i cant believe that we are going to miss celebrating our anniversary again. makes the second one we have missed together and it probably wont be the last. i was going to give myself a birthday party but mike's pay has been messed up here lately that i am not going to have money for a party. bills comes first, then mike, and then myself. the month of june was kind of busy. had my niece's birthday party. it was fun. and i carried two of my nephews to watch transformers 2. it was a really good movie. really didnt have the money for it but i want to do something with my nieces and nephews this summer sents it will be my last summer in alabama for awhile. and i cant do something with them all at once. so have to do it small groups. this month should be kind of busy. tomorrow is my and mike's anniversary. not doing anything special for it. but i wish mike was home so that way we could. have the fourth of july. my parents has a big cook out every year and i am going to make a cake for that. and of course i have my sister's birthday. may try to find something that she would like and give it to her. but dont know if i will have the money for what i want to get her but i will see. also going to have a bonfire the night of the fourth of july with my family. i think it will be fun. but we will see if everyone shows up. and i probably will be taken alot of pictures of the 4th and will be spending the 5th uploading the pictures..

6 years ago

six years ago yesterday mike was asking me to marry him after a month of dating. who knew right. well i kind of did because we had only been dating like 2 or 3 weeks when we told each other that we love each other. then a week after that we started talking about getting married. even started planning it and we wasnt offically engaged at the time. i gave mike a couple of examples of rings that i liked. and then like a week of showing him which ring i liked he asked me to marry him. he had called me one friday morning to let me know that he had order me some flowers and that i should get them that day. ( that is how he was letting me know that he was going to ask me) well i didnt get the flowers. the website he used canceled the order. i know stupid website. he gets in late that night. i knew he had my ring with him and i guess i couldnt wait to get my ring LOL so i started trying to at least get him to let me see. so we was laying in bed and he gets up and looks in his suit case and comes back to bed and asked me to marry him. so the next day we announced to everyone that we was offically getting married. then we set a date for july 3 2004. so we waited a year to get married. it took us from july to dec to find a place to get married at. so we was finally got to order our invitations and had them mailed out by jan of 2004. and ethen everything started coming together with the planning. it was stressful and some what not to fun in planning it but i wouldnt change a thing because it was worth it all. because i married the man who is my soulmate. he has the other half of my heart.


i hope you like our engagment story. coming next the story of our wedding. (sorry i am just now writing this. but yesterday i was busy with carrying to of our nephews to the movies to watch transformers 2. we loved the movie. it was really good. )

5 monthes down

5 monthes down and way too many left to go. i cant believe that mike has been gone for 5 monthes. sometimes it has seemed longer and some days it seems like it was just yesterday that i had to carry him to the airport. before you ask when he will be home. i have no clue. so please dont ask. i have been trying to keep myself busy by uploading those pictures which i am not done with doing yet but maybe i will be soon. i also being reading alot. i can not tell you how many books i have read. all i can say is that it is alot. also being working out with the wii fit. i have lost a couple of poungs sents working out with it. i also got my hair cut to. i havent had that many headaches sents getting it cut. if you dont know me. my hair is really thick so when it is long it gets to feeling like my head is and neck is being weighed down.i went to a flea market one weekend and got me a couple of shirts and a couple of books. that is really the only time i have been to any places like except for yesterday i finally got to go shopping and i needed to get a few things for mike and get my youngest niece something for her birthday. i love to be able to spend saturdays just walking around the mall and places like that but i havent gotten to do that all that much sents mike has been gone. i have gotten to do it a few times but not like when mike is home. i would like to plan a few things for this month but dont know if i will be able to do it or not. but will have to see. i would like to either plan a weekend where me, my sister, and nieces goes somewhere but dont know if it will be this month or the next. i also would like to be able to do something with my nephews may carry 3 of them to the movies and two of them to the zoo or something like that. not sure yet but i need to get it all planned out. this month i do have at least one thing planned and that is my niece birthday. which her party is this weekend. and her birthday is like a week from today. i cant believe that she is going to be 11 years old. . and of course will be getting ready for 4th of the july here. i am also trying to get stuff together to make mike a anniversary box to send to him. i think he will like it. our anniversary is month( so keeping looking for the story of our wedding. our engagment story is something this month. so keep looking for it to.) i would like to do something for my and mike's anniversary. i dont want to be stuck in the house that day. it is going to be lonely enough without him here for our anniversary i dont want to be home thinking about it. oh i have planning my own birthday party to keep me busy. i know my birthday isnt until aug but i would like to get it all planned out.

well i am going to go but i hope you all are doing good. i will write more later.

on this day six years ago

on this day six years ago me and mike started dating. can you believe that we have been together for 6 years, i cant. it doesnt seem like it has been that long ago that we went on our first date. mike drove six hours just to met me face to face. i had done told him that we had to met with my family around and he was okay with that. i wasnt excepting him to show up until like 5 or 6 on friday evening. but i get this call from him saying he was in town and at the hotel at about 11 or 11:30 am. he said that he just wanted to call and let me know that he was in town. i told him to give me about 2 hours to get ready and he could come on over. ( i still needed to take a shower, and get dressed in the clothes i was planning on wearing on our first date and i still need to put some make up on to.) so after the two hours was up he comes over. he passes by my house at first so i had to wave him down. he met my mom and one of my cousins first and then my dad came home from work so he met my dad. then after he met my dad we went to ride around some and got something to eat and got to know each other. we also went to walmarts, can you believe that our first date was at walmarts LOL. then we came back to my house and watched some movies until real late into the night. he didnt leave until nearly about 2 or 3 am. he told me as he was leaving that he would be back the next day to spend some more time with me. so he comes over and we go on our second date. i think he came over like 9 or 10 that next morning. then we went to walmarts (i know again) and had our pictures taken. yep that is right we had our pictures taken on our second date. the woman who took our pictures thought we had done been together for awhile or that we was married or getting married one. then after we had our pictures taken we went back to my house for awhile. then after awhile we went to the drive inn. we watched either just one of the movies or both of them. i can still remember what movies was playing, holes and bruce almighty was playing. i think we spent about 4 or 5 days together that first time we met and then mike would come up just about every weekend after that until we got married. i know what u thinking why didnt i go see mike but i didnt have a driver licenses i know but what can i say. we got engaged in june of 2003 and we had a year long engagment.

well i hope you all like my story. on july 3rd or around the 3rd of july i will write the story of our engagment and wedding. until then i hope you all enjoy the story of our first date and that you all are doing good.

marley and mccloud

i just thought i would write alittle on marley and mccloud. marley is our puppy. i really dont know what breed of dog he is. so dont ask. and mccloud is our cat. you ask how we got them. well we got them from my parents. how they got them. they was on their home (now my parents was on their way home.) from town one day and seen marley and mccloud on the a side of the road curled up together and they looked like some one just dropped them on the side of the road to be runned over or something. so my dad stopped and carried them home. they (my parents) started looking for someone to take them home. but my dad didnt want them (marley and mccloud) to be separated. so me and mike talked about and decided to take them. so now we have a puppy (who is a handful) and cat (which i really dont like cats but on well.) i will get a picture up of them when i can.

well that is really all there is to tell about marley and mccloud.

i hope you all are doing good.

4 monthes down and a little update

well we have 4 monthes down and way to many to go. that is right mike has been gone for 4 monthes minus the 2 weeks that he was home last month. i cant believe that it has been a week sents i had to carry him back to the airport. i sure do wish that this deployment was already over with and that mike was home. yeah i have been trying to stay busy but i miss him so much. i miss going a sleep in his arms. or just him laying beside me as i go to sleep. usually he is either reading or playing his ds. (as my nephew says he is a game freak LOL) but hey i dont care if he plays just as long as he is beside me. i have been trying to keep myself busy by uploading pictures and reading and exercise. i had gotten mike a wii for our anniversary ( i know it was early but i wanted him to be able to play it some you know what i mean). and he bought me a wii fit to go with it so i have been working out with it. i think i may have to throw in some more exercises in with it because i dont know if it is going to be enough to lose the weight i want to lose. yeah i know cutting back on the eating will help awhole lot and i am working on that but i will take some time LOL.

okay now on for a update. as most of you know i tried femara while mike was home. it is another fertility drug. well it didnt get my levels up to where the doctor wants it be so i have to higher dose. dont know how much higher of a dose but we will find that when mike gets to come home again and that will be whenever this deployment is over with. my levels (progestrone levels) was 9. something i think it was like 9.5 or 9.7 and it is suppose to be 12. so no pregnancy right now maybe by this time next year we will be pregnant.

well that is it for now i will try to update you more later. i hope you all are doing good.

my time with mike

i just thought i would update you all on my time with mike. he came home on easter day. he had called me, wait he texted me on april 11th to let me know that he would be home after 2 pm on easter day. well sunday morning (easter morning) he calls me and to tell me that he maybe in at 1pm that day. about a hour later he texts me and tells me that he would be at the airport at 12:30pm. so me and my sister leaves to go to the airport. we had to drive like 2 hours to the airport to pick up mike. we get there and we had enough time to go to the bathroom. we sit down to wait because it was showing that his plane was delayed. well we sit down and i get a text from mike saying that the he was landing or had landed one. then on the board it was saying the plane had land and then arrived. then mike walked though the doors adn that was the greatest moment. seeing him in his uniform. he is so sexy in his uniform. well at least i think he is. so we drive back the 2 hours to my parents house and we had easter dinner. we watched the kids (nieces and nephews) hunt easter eggs.(yes i have pictures from easter. and i will have all them up as soon as i can). then after all that me and mike goes to our house. it was so good to be home with him. we didnt do to much on monday. on tuesday we went to had the truck worked on. then on wednesday we went to the zoo. yep i have a whole bunch of pictures from the zoo. on thrusdaay we rested. then friday night we had a double date with our fifteen year old niece. i felt so old. it was kind of akward to go on a double date with my niece. then on saturday we had the baby shower for my cousin. that was fun. i have a whole bunch of pictures from that to and i will post them as soon as i can. then after the baby shower me and mike left to go to ga. there is a flea market that mike wanted to go to. then after that we went to auburn. mike wanted to find a flag to carry back with him to hang up in his room. then we went to some flea markets/antique malls stores. we found some good stuff. we plan to go back to them when mike comes back home from this deployment before we go to va. then when we got back home from all that was late monday night april 20. on tuesday we did alittle shopping at the mall and got a puppy and kitty. i think the pupp is a part golden retiever mix but i am not to sure about that. my nepheew named him marley. the kitty i named him mccloud. . i know what you are thinking strange name for a cat. LOL. i will make a blog all about them one day. wednesday we didnt do nothing but just sit around the house. then on thrusday we went to the movies. we watched medea goes to jail. a really good movie. i had done seen it once but mike hadnt and he wanted to see it. then on friday morning we got and traveled to see mike's family. ( i feel like all we have done or did the whole time mike was hom was travel.) on saturday we had a little cook out with his family then saturday evening we came home and then on sunday we went to tish state park with my family and had alittle cook out there and walked some trails. and yes i have pictures from that to. i think that is the pictures i am trying to up load now. then on monday we stayed home and got things ready for tuesday. mike had to go back to the sand box on tuesday. it was so hard to see him leave again. now i cant wait for this deployment to be over with and we can be together again.

well that is pretty much it. sorry for it being so long. i try to shorten it some. i hope you all have been doing good.

3 monthes down

well it has been 3 monthes sents the last time i seen mike. sents i got to be in his arms and felt safe and loved. i cant believe that we have 3 monthes down and way to many to go. at times it doesnt seem like all that long ago that he was home and sometimes iits seems like it was a lifetime ago that he was home. i do try to stay busy but sometimes it is kind of hard to stay busy when i cant think of anything to do. sometimes the weekends are the hardest. because when mike was home we would spend the weekends either going to flea markets or shopping. or we would go and rent movies and just watch movies all weekend long. or we would go and visit family. but since mike has been gone i just feel like i have stayed home on weekends more then i did when mike was home. sometimes i dont want to make my family feel like i am truding on their plans. and i know that i probably do at times. but it is just so lonely and i do need to get things to mail off to mike. i dont want him to ever feel like i dont care about him and since he isnt home for me to show him how much i do care for him then i have to show it in packages. and sometimes i am drove crazy by being lonely and bored and i just love to go shopping. i love to go shopping and find good deals on things. i also love to go to yard sales to. you can find good deals on things at yard sales. oh talking about yard sales i got to tell you a story. i went to this yard sale one day and i seen this pair of jeans that looked really nice jeans to be used. they looked brand new just about it and they had $20 on the jeans. no i didnt get them. heck i didnt get nothing at that yard sale. i left. if i want to spend $20 on a pair of jeans i will go to a store and buy them so that way i know they are brand new and i can try them on before buying them. okay that is that for that story. i am going to go but i will try to write more later. ( it maybe like around easter or right before easter one when i will write again) i hope you all are doing good.

fun day yesterday

i had a fun day yesterday with my nieces and sister. we went shopping yesterday morning. then we had lunch at chilis. i just love their boneless buffalo wings. they are really good. then we went to walmarts in one town (the town that we was shopping in). then when we got to the town that my and mike's house is in we went to walmarts again to get drinks and snacks for the movies we was going to watch. when we was leaving walmarts i notice that the fair was in twon. it was a small fair but it was in town. i tried to show my sister without my nieces noticing it but she didnt see what iw as pointing at. she thought i was pointing at taco bell LOL. so i had to tell her and my nieces heard me. they stayed after me until i said we could go to the fair. so we went to the fair last night. i only rode one ride because i wanted to ride at least one with my nieces. i really dont like to ride the rides (i know i am weird), and i really will not ride the ones that goes up really high or the really fast roller coasters. but my sister rode some with my oldest niece. my oldest niece wanted to ride rides that even my sister wouldnt get on so we told her to ride them herself. but she didnt have to. there was this little girl there that was riding them by herself also so they rode them together. then about nine last night we went back to my house and watched twilight and then about 11 (i think that is what time twilight went off) i went to bed. so i had a fun day and night with my sister and nieces. maybe we will do it again one day.

just updating

first of all HAPPY ST. PATRICK'S DAY... i just thought i would do alittle updating. not much has went on but i wanted to update anyways. mike has been gone for 2 and half monthes. can you believe it. sometimes it still feels like yesterday that he left. march has been a okay month for me so far. i got my eyes checked and new glasses. have done alot of reading. my oldest niece turned 15 this month. can you believe i have a 15 year old niece. for her birthday i bought her a gag gift (but i also bought her a birthday gift to). i bought some baby outfits for the gag gift. it was so funny. my mom's birthday was this month to. me and my sister got together and bought pizzas and cake for my mom. it wasnt much but hey we did the samething for my dad to last month.

can you believe that there is only like 26 more days until easter. it doesnt seem like it but it is. going to help my mom get the stuff for a easter dinner. i will try to take alot of pictures at easter.

dont know if i have let you know what is or was going on with my grandmother. she was back in the hostipal this month. seems like she has been in the hostipal once every month so far. well i think they have found out what was wrong finally. she had or has a stomach infection and pneumonia. so maybe now that they are treating her for these two things she will start to feel better.

well i need to go but i will try to write more later. i hope you all have a great day and month.

updating you

i just thought i would update you all. mike has been gone for nearly 2 monthes now. it has been the longest 2 monthes so far. at least it has felt like it has been the longest. i have been reading alot here lately. i also been trying to exercise some. it is going good. i think i might can see that i am loosing weight but in some ways i cant. been trying to get out of the house to do things. but it has been hard to find away of going or people to do things. they just about always have something planned. so i try not interude in on their plans with their family. yesterday afternoon me, my sister, and cousin went shopping ( i got the rest of the stuff i am going to give my cousin at her baby shower. just like the decoration and the games and i will have everything. well besides food but that can weight until april lol.) last night me and my sister and cousin went to the movies to. we watched medea goes to jail. a very funny movie. i recommend you all to go and watch it. you will laugh a whole lot.

i think i am trying to get a cold again or my allergies are just going crazy one. it started the other day and it just seems to have gotten alittle worse. like right now my nose is stuffy and my throat is itchy. (at least it isnt like it was back in nov and the last time was sick which i think was in jan.) and i have been coughing some. i am sure i will start to feel better soon though. at least that is what i keep telling myself.

my grandmother was in teh hostipal again. she was in the hostipal for the same reason when she was in the hostipal last month. she is back at home now though. but they still havent found out what is wrong with her. stupid doctors. i bet if it was their grandmother they would have found out why she has been so sick.

well i am going to go but i will try to update more later.

oh wow (how the time flies)

i was brushing my teeth last night and it hit me. wow it has been over a month sents mike has been gone. at times it still feels like he just left. alot of the time it just seems the days are just dragging by. but i guess they are nto really. dont ask me how i am keeping myself busy because i really dont know. because sometimes it doesnt seem like i have nothing to do. i have been reading alot here lately. i think i have read like 8 books in about 2 or 3 weeks. i know that doesnt seem like alot to some people but to some it does. there has been times where i have read more then that in that time frame. i also have been exercising again to. right now i am doing 10 of 10 on the ab lounger and walking a mile and half on teh treadmil in the mornings. i plan on walking two miles next week. i also have this exercising dvd called flirtygirlfitness. that i have been using in the evenings. i just really started using the dvd this week so i really cant tell if it is working or not yet. going to give it a couple of weeks. but let me tell you that it is a workout. while i am doing the rounte i can feel my muscles in my legs working. i am not doing the complete rounte yet because it is a hard work out. and i get tired after about 10 minutes. i dont think i am going some of the moves just right but i am trying. i think it is going to be awhile before i get it just right. other then all that i have been sick to. well i was sick for about a week and half to two weeks last month. so i didnt do any exercising when i was. well i guess i will go but i will try to write more later. i just wanted to get on here and say oh the time is flying by.

so far this year

so far this year has been like a roller coaster in some ways. the beginning of the year my grandmother got put in the hostipal. she was in the hostipal for i think like two weeks or longer. i know it was close to something like that. there for awhile i think it was a touch and go for my grandmother. but she pulled though. she is doing better now. a week ago i get a email from mike tell me that his sister emailed him and told him that his grandmother was in the hostipal and that they didnt think she had long to live. well wednesday night i get a call from my sil saying that their grandmother may not live though out the night. well thrusday morning i get up to a voice mail on my phone saying that their grandmother had passed way. so i had to let mike know. he had done told me if something happened just email him. so i had to send him that email. that is the hardest email i have ever had to send. and yesterday me and my sister went to the funeral. so that way we could be there for mike. so far this year has been a roller coaster. i just hope that the rest of the year goes better.

six years ago

six years ago today i was on the internet. in a yahoo chat room. i seen this user name that caught my eye. at first i wasnt going to say hi but alittle voice told me to or i would be missing out on something. so i said hi. this person said hi and told me their name. i bet you wondering what that persons name is. his name is mike (if you wondering, yes i am talking about my hubby) we talked for awhile. i can not tell you how long we actually talked because i really dont know, but it was along time. we talked about everythign we could think of to talk about. we probably would have talked all day and night but we both had to go. but we talked the next day and the next. i think it was like the third or fourth day that we had been talking that we had got to talking about valentine's day. i told him even though i had dated guys before but i had never recieved a valentine's gift. he told me he had never gotten one neither. then the next day he asked if he could send me something. i told him he didnt have to and he told me yes he did. so i gave him my address. (yes i know what you are thinking. only after we had been talking online for a few days i gave him my address. but i just knew i could trust him. something just told me i could) and yes he gave me his address. and yes i sent him something for valentine's to. so on or around valentine's i get something from the ups. i open this box up and it was a heart shape box full of dove candy and a valentine card. (i still have the card.) i think he also sent me a phone card so that way we could talk on the phone. so we talked and chatted and wrote letters and emails to each other until may. on easter he sents me a easter basket full of candy. i mean it was alot of candy. if it hadnt been for my nephew that i was babysitting at that time. i would have never got all that candy ate. well that is enought of the story for. will tell more in may. so stay tune.

mike i am glad i said hi to you six years ago. these past six years has been the most wonderful and that is counting the down times. you know what those down times i am talking about.

I LOVE YOU AND ALWAYS WILL.

just saying thank you

i just thought i would take the time to say thank you to all my friends. you all have a special place in my heart. you all have been there for me when i have needed someone to vent to about anything and everything. i do not know where i would be if it hasnt been for all of you. some of you knows how i have felt adn knows how some people just dont understand. i know i am probably not making any sents right now and i am sorry for it. i just wanted to say thank you all for being there for me. you just dont know how much it has meant to me to have your support and understanding.

updating

i was just sitting around and thought i would do alittle updating. not much has happened sents i last wrote. mike is over there again and i miss him so much. we have gotten to talk a few times sents he has been gone. he has been pretty busy. he is doing good just misses home (mostly me). i got a post card from him that he sent me when he was on his way over there. he sent if from canada. i didnt know he was going to do that. he is such a sweet man and i love him so much.

i am doing pretty good just tired and lonely and counting the days i until i can see mike again. i got that baby blanket finish that iw as making for my cousin. i got the invitaions order for the baby shower and i got them in the mail the other day. the only thing i need to do on the invitations and put where she is register at. i will be sending them out sometime in feb. been paying bills (but that is a monthly thing i do lol). i have also have been trying to catch up on my reading. i have to many books to read. in two more weeks will be my nephew's birthday party. i will start making his cake like on the 23rd. his party is on the 25th but his birthday is actually 27th. can you believe that i am going to have a 16 year old nephew. i cant.

things has been kind of stressful here lately. with mike being gone and worrying about him all the time and my grandmother being in the hostipal. things are just so stressful. my grandmother is doing better. and she may get to go home tomorrow. just got to wait and see what one other doctor says. she has been in the hostipal sents new years day. so everyone will be glad when they say she is well enough to go home.

well i need to go but i will try to write more later. i hope all of you are doing good.

you have asked what pcos is

some people has asked what pcos is. so i thought i would write a blog about it.

pcos is polycycstic ovary syndrome. it is a metabolic disorder that disrupts your hormones, typically giving you higher than normal levels of certain sex hormones and isulin, which can tirgger symptoms such as irregular (or no) periods, acne, excess hair and weight gain. you may also have a number of cysts on your ovaries- these show up as dark blobs on an ultrasound scan. these are infact empty egg follicles in a state of 'suspended animation', waiting for the right balance of sex hormones to come along and activate them.

what causes pcos? researchers have noticed that pcos tends to run in families, and a number of stufies suggest that genes play a part in developing the syndrome. (just incase you dont know what a gene is but i am sure you do.) a gene is a basic unit of heredity; bits of dna that direct the reproduction growth and function of cells. symptoms are fairly easy to track down through the generations. there maybe early male-pattern baldness in men and pcos symptoms in women. the long term health risks of pcos-such as diabetes, high blood pressure and obesity-can also be seen in both sexes, and it's thought that if a woman has pcos, then her immediate family members have a 50-50 chance of having it too. ( so to my family please pay attention and get to know your body and if you suspect that you might have this talk to your doctor.) another theory about what causes pcos is that women with this conditon produce too much testosterone-a hormone known as the (male) hormone because men produce 10 times more than women. in pcos, the excess testosterone finds its way into the body's circulation and triggers teh familiar pcos symptoms of hair loss, facial hair and acne.

in the last few years, research has discovered that a condition known as insulin resistance plays an important role in the cause of pcos. major reviews on the subject suggest that up to 70 percent of women with pcos who are over weight can have insulin resistance, and 30 percent of women who are slim can have it too. women with insulin resistance have raised levels of insulin in their blood stream, and high levels of insulin have been shown to stimulate the ovaries to produce more testosterone and lower blood leves of shbg (sex hormone-binding globulin), resulting in higher and more active levels of testosterone.

pcos and fertility

many women with pcos are diagnosed in their twenties and thirties, but some arent diagnosed until they are in their forties, this is because it's during this time a woman is most likely to want to conceive, and many women with pcos arent diagnosed until they have trouble getting pregnant. (this is a concern, as pcos is far more than a fertility issue and has long-term health effects.)

so that is what i have read up on pcos. if you want to read more about it. you can read the book the ultimate pcos handbook lose weight, boost fertility, clear skin and restore self-esteem by colette harris & theresa cheung