happy holidays

I just wanted to wish you all a merry christmas and happy new year. I hope you all have had a wonderful day. My day has been wonderful. Got to spend today with my husband. Santa bought me a new camera, books, cds,movies, a new camera bag and tripod for my camera. And i also got a roaster to. I cooked our turkey in it. It sure was good.

Again happy holidays and stay safe and warm

can you believe it is dec

can you believe that it is already dec. this year has went by quickly. i am so not looking forward to next year because sometime next year mike will be deploying again for the 3rd time. this year has been pretty good. almost great lol. got to spend new years jan 1. 2010 with mike. even though we didnt really do anything special but just being with him is special to me. we also moved to va in jan for a military schooling that mike had to do. and we got to go to places while we was there that was so great. got to see a old friend of my from high school. it was so good to see her and her family. i just wish we could do it more. we are going have to make plans to have a reunion of some sort at least once a year. we went to pa, va beach, and washington d.c. so during our time in va was great. got to see snow. as most of you know when you live in alabama you dont see snow all that much mabye once in a blue moon lol. in july we had to move yet again this time to tx. we havent gotten to do to much here in texas because mike has been really busy. we also found out that he is getting deployed again sometime next year. it sucks but hey what can we do about it nothing. so we will get though it. we have gotten though 2 deployments already so a 3rd isnt going to be to bad to get though.

nov went by really quick it seems like. it was a good month. got to spend time with family and got to see my uncle jed to and spend some time with him. walked in a st jude's walk that was fun. i wish we could have raised more money and got more people involved in it. maybe we will do another one next year. thanksgiving was a good day to. i got to spend it with mike. any day i get to spend time with mike is a good day lol. i got my driver licenses to so now i dont have to wait for someone to carry me somewhere i can get out and go.

dec is going to be a kind of busy month for us. we have christmas party after christmas party but it should be fun. plus mike will be more busy this month. we dont have much to get christmas gifts with but that is okay christmas isnt about gifts it is about jesus and love and happiness. i have my christmas tree decorated and got my snoglobes out but two had gotten broken during the move. it makes me so mad. i even had fragile breakable inside so please dont drop throw. but i bet they either drop it or throw the tub that they was in. and beat it all it was my two big size snoglobes. so i want some more snoglobes. i hope we will be able to afford a snoglobe this year. we always try to get a snoglobe onces a year.

we are doing good. just trying to spend as much time together as we can. we are going to try to go to seaworld again this year. i hope we can go. i so wait to go back. i hope you all are doing good and that you all had a good thanksgiving and that you also have a wonderful christmas.

wow cant believe it

i cant believe that i finally got my driver licenses. some part of me knew that i could do but i didnt want to get my hopes up. but i did a lot of praying and just went and did it. i tell you what though yesterday and last night i was so nervous and scared about going to try for them. i finally sit down and wrote out my feelings about what was making me nervous and scared and it helped a whole lot i wasnt as scared. i didnt get nervous during the test until the driver instuctor (state trooper) had me stop and back up. she let me redo it so thankful for that. she was kind of hateful talking alittle bit there but oh well i wasnt going to let that stop me. i took a breath and pulled up and back up again. and i had to do the three point turn. i did that pretty good at least i think i did and it was my first time doing the three point turn i wouldnt practice it because i didnt want to lol. but i feel like if i had practice it i probably wouldnt have done a good job on it. but i am so thankful that i have my licenses now and i am so proud of myself for doing something that i was scared to do. now got to find something else to accomplish. well i am going to go but i will try to update when i get home in texas. i hope you all have a wonderful thanksgiving and to the ones traveling this holiday season be safe and have a fun trip.

it is nov already

i so cant believe it is nov already. at times it still seems like me and mike was celebrating the new year. here it is nov already. there really isnt to much to update you all on right now. i have a new car. i love it. it is a 2011 honda civi. i have been driving in it and i am hoping in a couple of weeks i will have my licenses. i was going to practice backing up today but when i started out it started thundering and i knew it was fixing to rain. so i didnt. i probably should have anyways but i dont like to practicing in the rain. even though i would be in the car i still dont like to.

oct just went by fast. i dressed up like sookie from true blood. i wish mike and i could have been together for halloween. you know the pass 5 years mike and i have not been together on halloween. i was hoping that this year would have been different but nope it wasnt. we probably wont be next year neither. i got all my nieces and nephews their christmas gifts. got mike's birthday gifts to and maybe a gift for christmas to. mike and i talked about the military ball that is coming up in jan. and we decided that we want to go. so i went looking for a dress about two weeks ago. i just couldnt decided that day on which dress i wanted so i went back last week to buy the one i wanted. it is really pretty. right now it is being alter (just the hemline that is getting alter). the first time i went to look at the dresses, i tried on a size 14 and it wouldnt zip all the way. well when i went back last week to buy it. i had to try it on again and the size 14 fit and it zipped all the way to. i am so happy about that. i hoping that it will still zip when i go back again.

nov is going to be a some what busy month for me. i am going to try for my licenses (keep fingers and toes crossed and pray that i pass the test). my two youngest nephews birthdays are this month. going to try to finish up on my christmas shopping. got to go pick up my dress and shoes for the ball. go pick mike up at the airport. thanksgiving should be a good and busy day. got a st jude's walk with my sister this month to. that should be a good day. we have done raised about 140 dollars i think. i am hoping we can get some more raised for it. it is for a really good cause. mike and i will be traveling back to texas this month to. so yeah nov is going to be a busy month.

as for the adoption we have only been able to put like 20 dollars a month in the savings for it. i have been thinking about doing some fundraisers but not to sure. going to talk to mike about it. also been thinking about setting up a savings account just for that. mike and i will have to talk all about it when we see each other again.

well that is it for the update for right now. i will try to update you again sometime this month if i have the time.

sep has passed and now it is oct

sept has finally passed. sept was not a good month for me at all. our bills was allittle to high. but we got them all paid. we had to spend time apart and we got though that. i wish we didnt had to spend time apart but we did. i really missed mike alot. i love spending time with him. i guess some people dont understand that and it caused drama. i cant help but wanting to spending time with mike. i enjoy spending time with mike. i enjoy going shopping with him. i enjoy sitting at home with him. i enjoy everything we do together. and i know he feels the same way.

oct is probably going to feel like a long month. i am going to go and visit with family in oct. and i will be there until thanksgiving. well like a day or two after thanksgiving. i wish me and mike wasnt going to be apart again but there is nothing we can do about it. i am going to miss spending halloween with him. this will make about the 5th halloween in a row that we have missed together. but there is nothing we can do about it but just go with the flow until we see each other again. i wish there was something we could do but there isnt. before any of you other military wives starts trying to tell me or explain to me the why of they go though this training. just know that i already know why they go though it. and i am glad the military takes time to try them. but i still love spending time with my husband and i will always want to be with him instead of him being gone all the time.

okay enough about all that. dont really have much planned for oct. we did have but it all got changed. i am going to try to get out while visiting family to take some pictures so i can have some more for beth's hobby group. i am going to try to talk my nieces in modeling for me. i think they will do it. well i know for sure that my youngest niece will. i just hope my oldest niece will.

i am doing pretty good besides all that stress last month. i feel like i have lost some weight. dont know how much because i havent weighted. i dont plan on it. i am just going to go by how my clothes feel. and they feel alittle looser then they was. i have started fixing small plates when i eat. and if that small plate doesnt fill me up then i fix another small plate. but usually the first fills me up. mike is doing good. just staying really busy with work. which i know he is doing a good job. he always try his hardest at everything he does.

well i am going to go but i will try to update you more later. i hope you all are doing good.

just dont understand

i just dont understand why some people think they are better then and other people for that matter. we are all the same. no one person is better then anyone else. no one person is perfect. i know i am not perfect and i dont try to be perfect. i do try to be a good person, a good daughter, a good sister, a good aunt, a good wife, and a good friend. i listen to my family or friends when they need to vent about anything no matter what it is. and i try my best not to judge them. yes i will emit that i may have had my moments where that the judging comes up but i always stop and think of what i am doing and i stop judging. and i am sorry if i have hurt anyone feelings. i do not mean to. you maybe sitting there wondering why i am writing this and i will tell you. have been made to feel like i am worthless, that i am not a good wife and that some of my online friends doesnt really care to get to know me in person or is a true friend. i have invited some to hang out either at a resturant or at my and mike's home but they never show up or let me know if they are coming or not. but they can met up with mutual friends of ours. i have been judge by some people because i dont have a driver licenses. you can say you know how feel about having a fear of driving but you dont know what it is like to have panic attacks. feeling your heart racing and like it is about to jump out of your body. you dont know how feels to have these panic attacks either sitting behind the wheel or in the passager seat when the driver has to slam on the brakes to keep from hitting some stupid person who isnt driving right. you will never know how it feels until you experince it yourself and i hope you never have to go though something like that. i have been made to feel like i am not a good ( and let me tell you this that mike has never made me feel that way. he has always made feel loved and that i am a good wife. ) by the simple fact that i really dont like wearing sorten kinds of clothes to function me and mike has been invited to. (yes i do have some nice clothes in my closet ) i think that i should be the person that i am and not be someone i am not.

if you can not be my friend and like me for me then there is no reason for us to be friends. i am who i am and if you dont like it then get to stepping out of my life because i dont need you or your judging or drama in my life.

sept all ready

can you believe that it is sept all ready, i cant. it still seems like it should be july but it isnt. things has been busy for us. we ae pretty much settled but we still like a few things to do here and there and we should have them done by christmas. mike took command on sept.1. i am so proud of him. i know he will be good at taken charge and watching over the soldiers . i also know he will teach them alot. of course i am doing okay. just trying to get over my allergies. i hope i can be a good commander's wife but i feel like that i am not going to be. i really dont want to ask for rides to go to some of the functions i would need to go to. yes i know what you all are thinking and i dont want to hear. you are thinking that i need to get my licenses. dont you think i know this all ready. i have been telling myself this for a very long time and i dont need to hear it from anybody else. and i do plan on getting them. i just ask for prayers that i can pass the test adn i dont have anymore panic attacks behind the wheel. okay to talk alittle about the change of command ceremony ( i wish i had pictures to share but mike didnt get no one to take pictures for us like i thought he was or i would have taken some. ) oh how i wish they had had the ceremony indoors because it was so hot. i was going to wear a dress but i got to feeling so uncomfortable in the dress and also started feeling like i was about to show my butt and i didnt want to do that lol. good thing me and mike had went the weekend before the ceremony and bought me some slacks and good thing we had enough time on the day of the ceremony to go buy me a nice shirt to wear with my slacks. i think i looked pretty good mike seemed to think so and no one didnt say anything about what i was wearing. i still need a few more outfits and maybe a couple of like cocktail dresses and i think i will have enough of very nice clothes to wear to some of the functions. the next couple of monthes will be very busy for mike. ( i just hope we will have time to start our christmas shopping and the money to) money is alittle tight for us right now. but we will get by. we got by before and we can get by this time. well that is it for now but i will try to get back on later.

our journey to having a baby

i just thought i would write a story of our journey to having a baby. lets see we have been trying to have a baby every sents we got married. which makes it 6 years and a month as of right now. we had hoped and pray that we would have concieved on our wedding night but it didnt happen. i think we tried on our own without the help of doctors for like 2 years. when mike got deployed the first time i went to the doctor to see what was going on with my body. that is when i found out i have a thyroid problem and pcos. when mike came home from the first deployment we tried 4 rounds of clomid and it didnt work. so we waited several months before trying again and then mike got deployed for the second time. but the doctor worked with us to try a fertility drug called femara when he came home on his R&R and it didnt work. well we tried another round of femara when the deployment was over and it didnt work (this was all in 2009) so feb 2010 we we to a specialist and he wanted to try clomid again. now i did try to tell him that it didnt work but he really didnt listen to me at least that is how it seemed and as you guessed it, it didnt work out. well they said we had to do the shots. but me and mike just didnt feel like that at that time the shots was for us and we still feel that way. maybe in a year or two we will try the shots but not right now. so we talked about it about and we are going to try to adopt. but we wont get to do that for another year and half so that way we can save up some money. but one way or another we will have a baby one day. just please keep praying for us.

that is our journey to having a baby so far. one day soon i will update you all on our journey again.

just thought i would do alittle update

i just thought i would do alittle update on things. there is a chance that we maybe putting the adoption on hold for about a year and half. we are going to save money up for it. we found out that just the home study was going to be $1000 and right now we just cant afford that. maybe in a year and half we will have the money and not so many bills piled on top of us. this month things are going to be really tight. well maybe not to tight but tighter then it had been. we have extra bills that we are having to pay this month but we will get though it. let me see what all we will be doing this month besides paying bills. we will be unpacking and getting settled. we also have my birthday. dont know what we will be doing for my birthday. probably just sitting around at home and that is okay with me. just as long as i can spend the day with mike. that is all that really matters to me. that is pretty much all we will be doing this month. maybe next month will be alittle better but we will see. i hope you all have a good month and that you all stay cool in this heat.

the move to texas

the move to texas


the move to texas went good i guess. we left va on july 9. we went to s.c. for one night. we was going to meet up with a friend but she was busy. when we found out she was busy we decided to go on with the traveling. we drove all the way to auburn, al where we stayed for one night. then we traveled on to red bay, al where we spent a week with the family. we didnt get out visit with people because we both was tried of traveling and wanted to rest but we did have a cook out for the family to visit us and no one really showed up. the only ones that showed up was a cousin and his family. my parents, my brother and his family, and my sister and her family. everyone should have showed up because we had a good time. i guess they expected us to go visit them but if they had done all that traveling and knew they had like 12 to 13 more hours of traveling to do they wouldnt want to go visit anyone to. okay enough about that. on monday 19th of july we left al and started the rest of our trip to texas. the trip went good. we got LA about 5 or 6 that evening where we decided to stop for the night. if i am remembering correctly it was LA where we got into the really heavy rain and what looked like it was going to come up a good storm but it really didnt storm it just rained really heavy. we got up the 20th of july and finished up the rest of our travel. we got to the hotel we was going to stay at until we found a place to live well i forgot the time that we got in lol. we stayed in a hotel until like the 23 or 24th of july. we had went looking for a house on 21st. i think we looked at about 5 houses. was going to look at 6 but we couldnt find the 6th house so we decided to decided from the 5 we had looked at. well we decided not to go with one because the floors look like they was falling apart. it looked like the laminated on the wood floors had gotten wet and it was coming up. we had picked this one house that had like two dinning rooms and living rooms but the rental company that had that house kept giving us a run around on things. first it was they had to wait for our renting history info. then it was we have that info but the person that handles all the app is on the phone and she will get to it after she gets off the phone. then it was she was at lunch and she will get to it when she got back and then it was oh we just got your renting history info. so we got tired of it that and went to any rental company. dont get me wrong we love this house to. i think it only took like 5 minutes to get approved. we are slowly getting settled. it will take us awhile but we will get there. i tell you what we kept getting a run around with the phone company to. our phone and internet was suppose to got turned on july 28th but we got a call say that it was delayed that they would get to it by late that evening or the first thing on the 29th. well the 29th rolled around and no one showed up. so we called them back and they said that someone showed up and there was no one home and they left a paper on the door. well someone was home all day that day and there was nothing left on the door. so the phone company said they will get someone out on the 30th between 9 and 10. well at 10 when no one showed up we called them back. one person said that it was 10 to 11 then other one said it was because we lived in a gated community which we dont (but i kind of wish we did lol). then another person gave us a wrong address that was showing up and then another person said it was going to be between 10 and 12. so we gave them til 12 and then when no one showed up we called back and they told us it was going to be between 12 and 1. so mike just told them to cancel it that we would get the internet from the cable company. so he called the cable company and now we have internet yay lol.

well that is it for now but i will try to update again later. i hope you all are doing good.

wow it is july

wow it is july already. where has the time gone. it seems like yesterday that we was moving to va now we are getting ready to move to texas. june was a good month. we went to va beach. we had so much fun. we also went back to d.c. for the day. we had a good day minus a few bumps. well just one bump. yep i said bump. if you guessed it you are probably right. mike backed up and hit something again. this time it was a car and not a pole. but there was no damage and no one got hurt. the guy that we hit said that he didnt want to exchange insurance info. so glad about all that. i told mike we are just going to have to stay away from d.c. because he keeps backing up into things lol. oh this month is going to be busy. mike graduated from theses classes today. it was really great to see him do that. and i am so proud of him. tomorrow we are going to get the truck ready for us to move (oil changed, brake lights checked and so on and a trail ball added to the truck to so we can pull a small trailer. )then on saturday is our anniversary. 6 wonderful years. can you believe it. i fall more in love with mike more each day. we are not going to do much for the 4th of july. we wish we could be with our family but that isnt possible at the moment. on monday july 5 we will be packing the things we will be moving with us to texas and then sometime between the 6 and 8 of july the movers comes and pack and move our things. then sometime around the 9 or 12 we will be on our way to texas. first we are going to stop off and visit friends and then our family in al. we are going to have a family gathering on the 17th at tishmingo state park in ms. that should be a fun day. you know me i will have alot of pictures to upload when we get to texas. which i think that will probably be like around the 19 or 20th maybe the 21st of july but not to sure yet. we are going to have alot to do when we get to texas. we will have to find us a place to live, lights, water and cable and internet turned on. also have to find a docto and dentist. yeah i need to go to the doctor and have my thyroid checked out and i need to go to the dentist to. plus mike needs to have his teeth recleaned. so july is going to be a busy month. august probably will be a busy month to. mike will have to go back to work and he will have to get use to it and i am going to have to get use to it all to. we are also going try to start the adoption process in aug. i hope it wont take forever for all the paperwork we have to do get processed and say that we are now waiting parents. but i am preparing myself for a long wait on that and a long wait to fin a match for us. but i know in the long run it will be so worth the wait. and also my birthday is in aug to. i will be 30 years old. can you believe i will be 30. it is just a number it doesnt mean i am getting old. at least that is what i keep telling myself lol. well that is all that is going on right now. i will try to update you more later.

our trip to va beach

our trip to va beach was really fun. we left here about 230 on friday and got there about 430 maybe nearly 5pm. we carried our stuff to our room and walked out on teh balcony and looked at the ocean and took a couple of photos. then after we had rested awhile from the drive we went and walked on the boardwalk to find us something to eat. then after we ate we went back to the hotel and just watched alittle tv. then sit outside on the balcony some. then around 10pm something we watched some fireworks. i think the fireworks lasted about 5 or 10 minutes. then we went to be because we wanted to be all rested for our pictures we was having taken the next day. we got up on june 12 (saturday) and went ate breaksfast and then started getting ready for our pictures to be taken. then we walked across the street to the is store across from the hotel and bought a couple of things and tehn we went back to the hotel to wait on the lady who was going to take our photo for us. after she showed up we went and took those pictures and then me and mike came back to the hotel and our room and got ready to go to the beach and play in the water. yes of course i put on sunblock on. i was so surprised that i didnt get sunburn like i usually do. well i did get alittle red but not to much. so love that sunblock lol. i was so enjoying watching mike play in the water. it was so much fun. yes i got in the water for alittle bit but the current was really strong and since i cant swim i didnt want to stay in the water for to long. after we had been out for about a hour we got hungry so we went and got something to eat.. then we went and had those old time phots taken that was so much fun. i was a southern bell and mike was a cowboy. i wish we could have afford to buy all the photos but we couldnt. then we went back to the hotel and rested some and went back to the beach. the current was stronger then what it was earlier in the day. i think we had stayed out for about or so. it started to get cool outside. oh yeah the water was cold. but it did felt good though lol. then we went back to the hotel order something to eat and just relaxed. we was going to sit outside on the balcony to watch the fireworks again but there was some people on a balcony a floor or two below us that was being rude and screaming or talking as loud as they could and it was just frustated and not relaxing. then sunday morning we got up and ate breaksfast and did a little more exploring again but we didnt stay out to long because it was starting to get really hot and looking to much like it was going to rain. so we decided just come on home. believe me we didnt want to but we did. we was going to do a sunset boat ride on saturday but we didnt have the money for that and plus the current was really strong (you could see the boats that would go by just rocking). we may go back for our anniversary but not to sure yet.

well that was our mini vacation.

just another update

just doing another update for you. the month of may seemed like it went by pretty quick. i cant believe that we only have about a month and half left here in va. then it is on to texas and to a new adventures. we are doing good. just trying to stay busy. our trip to d.c. went good. we had to cut it short though. because i had gotten sick. we was going to stay one night there. we left on saturday morning real early and we got to the hotel and checked in and then we went visit to different places we wanted to go see. well when we got back to the hotel i had gotten sick. and i stayed sick all night long and just didnt feel like walking around somemore. so we came home. we been trying to pay off some bills. so far that is going good. i think we was able to pay off about four bills last month and maybe in several more monthes we can pay off some more. things with preparing for adoption is going good. i think we pretty much got what they call the birthparent or birthmother letter done. just got to do alittle editing on it and i think it will be done. wont know if the agency will like it but i guess we will find out in aug sometime if it will work or not. now we just got to decide on what picture we want to use on the birthparent letter and pictures to use in the adoption profile. still dont have any ideas for boys names. but we will decide on that one day. moving on to other things. we have planned alot this month. we plan on going to va beach in about a week and have some pictures taken. yes i will post them when we get them from the person who is going to take them for us. then we we get back from that we are going to go and watch the movie A team. mike is wanting to watch it but i am sure it will be a good movie. then like either the 27 or 28th we are going to go back to d.c. and go to the places we missed. we are only going to do a day trip for that. it should be fun. then like june 30 or july 1st we are going to go watch the new twilight movie. now that is going to be a good movie. wish i could go and watch it with my nieces and sister but there is no way we will be able to do that. we are going to be so busy this month. not only will be doing all that we will be getting ready to move again. now that is going to be a long trip. moving from va to tx. since al is in between we will be stopping off visiting with family and having a little cook out with them. this is so going to be a busy month. me and mike is wanting some roller blades. but dont know where any good places to roller blade at in va or tx. if anyone knows please let me know. we are hoping that either this month or the next one we will be able to buy us some roller blades. okay now to talk about the weight loss. i have lost 4 lbs. i said at teh beginning of may that i was going to try to loose any where from 2 to 5 lbs and i did loose 4 lbs. so yay. i was surprised at that i didnt think i was loosing any. i am going to try to loose any where from 2 to 5lbs this month. i do believe i can do it.

i think that is pretty much it but i will write more again later.

can you believe that it is april

just thought i would do alittle updating. can you believe that it is april already and that tomorrow is easter. where did jan, feb, and march go. mike and i are doing good. just trying to stay busy until we move again. which should be in july sometimes. mike got his orders for fort hood. so we will be in texas by aug. so really not looking forward to moving again but it will be okay. we plan on taken alittle vacation in july to savannah, ga. and then on our way to texas we will stop off in alabama to see family. dont know exactly when that will be but i will let my family when to expect us. maybe we can one big cook out or something so that way we are not running here and there because we really wont have time for that.

we are trying to find an adoption agency in texas. we want to go ahead and find out what all we need to do and have with us when we go to a adoption agency. and also trying to figure out how we are going to pay for it. it isnt free lol

the weight loss isnt going to good right now. instead of loosing i have gained like 5 to 6lbs. my problem is i love food. so i am going have to watch what or how much i eat during the day. maybe by may i will have lost some instead of gain.


i sure do wish that we could be with our family for easter. i am going to miss watching our nieces and nephews run around hunting eggs. and eatting a big old dinner. but that is okay mike and i is going to go hiking in the running and we will come back home and i will cook us some dinner. i am going to make us a cake. yes i will take pictures of it and post them on here.


lets see here things we are going to try to do this month.
we are planning a weekend trip to philly, pa. yes we will have pictures of that trip to. so watch for those lol. i plan on changing the color of my hair. and yes i will post a picture of that after i have it done. we plan on doing some more hiking at some of the state parks here. and of course just spending time together and that is pretty much what all we will be doing.

that is it for this update. i will update you again sometime later.

nursery theme

we have decided on a nursery theme. it will be a farm theme. it will go good with either a boy or girl. it is going to be so much fun buying things for the nursery. we may start buying a few things for it this weekend. and once we get everything and get the room decorated i will take a picture of it and post it. we already have a few things. like mostly clothes for a baby that i have bought at yard sales and on sales at department stores. and yes the clothes we have got is for either a boy or girl. we should be able to start on the paper work for the adoption in aug. but we are already working on a letter for the birthmother. just needing a few more ideas to put in the letter and we will have that done. been doing some searches on that on how to word it. and we also needing letters from friends and family that will write us a letter of recommendation. and some pictures. will have to go though all our pictures and decide on which ones we want to use. well that is it for now but i will write more later.

update

hey everyone, i just thought i would update you all. can you believe that this is the last day of feb, i cant. it seems like it was just turning jan but here it is fixing to be march. man oh man in march i will have a sixteen year old niece. how they grow up so fast.

okay now on to the update. me and mike is doing good. we just had a big decision we had to make this month. as you all know we have been trying to have a baby. and that we just started seeing a fertility specialist and we was going to try clomid and then have a ultrasound to see if i had any eggs. well i took the clomid and then i went in yesterday for that ultrasound and didnt have any eggs. i already had a feeling that i wasnt going to have. well the doctor said to make a appointment to talk about the injections. well me and mike talked about it. we talked alot and we have decided that we ae going to stop trying and once we find out if we are staying in va we are going to start adopting as soon as we find out for sure. and if we have to move in july then we are going to start adopting in aug. this is something that is in ou hearts and i really do think it will be better for us in the long run. i hope you all can support us in this decision. if you cant please keep your thoughts to yourself.

oh and if anyone has any kind of information you think we need to know about adoption please let us know.


okay on to a update about mike. he is doing good. his classes are going good. he is a wonderful hubb (i am sure every wife thinks that about their hubby) i am so lucky to have mike in my life. he respects me, loves me, and treats me like i am a princess or a queen. oh he makes me laugh so much. ( you should have seen him play the game just dance for the wii it was so funny).

okay a update on me. i am doing good. has decided that i am going to start back to exercising adn trying to loose some weight. i want to get back to 125lbs. i wonder if i can do it. i know i can. i have to loose about 55lbs and i know i can do it if i try really hard and do my best. i am not going to set a time frame for that. just a weightloss goal of 125lbs adn that is it.

well that is it for now but i will try to update you all more later.

the move part 2

we are finally have completely moved. my dad and brother and one of my nephews bought us the rest of our stuff the first weekend in feb. and we have been unpacking every sents then. and let me tell you i hate unpacking. but i am glad we dont have to sit in the floor or sleep on the air mattress. some things are going to stay packed up because right now we dont have any room to anything else. but that is okay we dont need much.

can you believe that feb is almost over with. where has the time gone. me and mike spent the day together today. it was a good day. no snow no rain. it was sun shine all day today and i love getting to spend time with mike. we went and bought us a dressers today. we got to two of them. we wont get them until like march 5. well just one of them anyways and the other is on back order and it will be here between march 5 to april 6 or 16 one. i am glad we finally found us some. we really needed them.

well i am going to go but i will try to update more later. i hope you all are doing good.

already feb

can you believe that it is feb already. i sure cant. it seems like yesterday that mike was just coming home. but here it is feb and almost valentine's. me and mike is in va now. we are staying in petersburg, va. can you believe that sents we have been here it has snowed on and off for the pass two weeks or so. i will post a pic of the first time it snowed the first weekend we was here later. had a doctor's appointment with the fertility specialist on the first of feb. he is going to try a round of clomid. the highest dosage and i go in for a ultarsound to see if i am about to ovulate and if so i get what they called a trigger shot. i really do hope this works. mike had to have his sperm checked and it came back good. i am glad i am going to get to spend valentine's day with mike this year. it is going to be a wonderful day. dont know what we will do but i am sure it will be a wonderful day because we will be together. well i am going to go but i will try to post again soon.

a new year

well it is a new year. i hope you all have had a good start to a new year. so far my is going okay. lets see i think i told you last that mike was suppose to be home sometime in dec. he got in the states about dec. 13 and he got home home on dec. 16. it was so good to get to see him. we went to disney world when he got home we had so much fun even though there was some people that got on my nerves. of course we went to sea world to. it was fun to. i think my favorites at sea world was the killer whales and the penguins. we stayed like four days in fl. my favorites at disney world was cinderlla castle and donald duck. we didnt get to do everything we wanted to while we was there but we plan on going back again one day. our christmas went good. i had to go in for that blood work on christmas day. it came back that the fertility drug didnt work. so i have been kind of down about that. well i think we both have been. on new years was good. got to spend it with my family. then on jan. 3 we had a welcome home dinner for mike that went good. everyone we invited showed. so i was glad about. a few days a family member well a ex family member said somethings to me and it pissed me off and that person is not in our life anymore. so that is a good thing. if you are wondering what that person could have said that could make me delete them out of our life is that she said something along the lines of me not being able to have kids. and i am sorry but that hurts and i dont want anyone in life that is going to bring up that. that just shows what kind of person that person is. moving on from that. the day the doctor told me that the fertility drugs didnt work she told me that i will have to see a specialist. so once we get to va we will be seeing fertility specialist. yep we will be moving to va on jan. 22 hopefully it wont be a to bad of a move. we will be there for 6 monthes. and after six monthes i dont know where we will be. maybe we will find in a couple of monthes.

you know this is a good year because mike and me is together and i have gotten some negative out of my life. i do believe that this is going to be a good year. i hope you all are doing good.

and a late happy new year.