happy halloween

i just wanted to wish everyone a happy halloween. i hope you all have a fun and safe day and night.

wonders if i will ever get done with everything.

i wonder if i will ever get done with everything before i leave around the 12 of nov to go back to texas. i got to have my whole house packed up and be ready to move the weekend after thanksgiving. i was hoping we could have a moving company to do it all but it was going to cost us nearly 7000 dollars. so my family is going to help me with everything. i still hope that we are going to have the money for everything that needs to be done. i have finish up the shopping for that baby shower (which i dont think that is going to cost to much more. i have coupons for sometime for that lol). i need to buy paint to paint the kitchen and living room. got to have money for a plane ticket for my brother. he is going to drive me to texas as i am afraid i will have a panic attack on the interstate. and got to have money to give him for gas and a moving truck (which i think we are going to go with a budget rental truck) and i got to have money to pay our bills next month and to rent us a house. next month is going to be really tight on the money i think. i really do need help with the packing and moving boxes and tubs around but i am afraid to ask my family for to much help. i feel bad that they have to help me move our stuff back to texas. i hate that they are having to take time out of their busy lives to help and i love them for that. i know i need to focus on one thing at a time to keep my stress level down but it is so hard not to. esspecially when i just look around the house and see everything that still needs to be done. i know it all is not going to be organized to good. and once i start to unpack it all when it gets to texas i will be wishing that it was but i just do not have the time to organize or the money really. i think the only way to really get it completely organize is to buy all new storage tubs and we do not have the money for that (actually we could use some new ones as these are missing leds and some of the leds are busted alittle but we do not have the money for it.) just thinking about all this makes me want to crawl under the bed until it is all done.

is in a good mood alittle

i am in a good mood. what has me in a good mood is that. we have gotten to pay off some of our bills. i know that we still have a few more that needs to be paid off but it still feels good to pay some of them off lol. now i just wish i can get everything with moving figured out. like how much it is going to cost to hire a moving company. i know it will be over a 1000 dollars but i have no clue how much over it is going to be. it will be my luck that we will not be able to hire a moving company but i like to hope that i know that my family will help me and it not cost a whole lot but we have to wait to hear from a moving company but i am not going to wait to much longer because i need to be in texas next month. my allergies are still bothering me but not as much as they had been but i think that may be because of the cooler weather. oh i am glad it is not hot outside anymore. but it is starting to get really cool outside. just walked out side to go to the mailbox and i was wishing i had put a jacket on before going out but i didnt think it was going to be that cool outside but hey i am liking it better then the heat that we had during the summer. oh i just feel like things are starting to look up and i am in a good mood. and not going to let nothing spoil it.

road blocks of life

i have been trying to think of how to write this without it sounding stupid (yeah i have been told at times that i dont know how to speak and i need to learn but oh well if you dont like it dont listen or read lol) i just want to take some time to write alittle bit about road blocks of life and what i how i learn to do about it them.

i have realized that you can not go around the road blocks that pop up in your path. you just need to go thru them. yeah it may be scary at first but if you just go around them they are going to follow you where ever you go. just go thru them and you may realize that some of them was not so hard to go thru. yes there will be some that may be so hard to get thru that you start to wish that you had just went around them but that is not going to help you to move on from that road block. there are all kinds of road blocks that can and probably will pop up on you as you go down your path of life. just try to keep your head up and your heart open and just keep walking and i promise you once you get to the other side of the road block you will feel at peace.

to know me is to understand me

to know me is to understand me. i am not a perfect person and i do not act like i am. i try to be a honest person. i try to be a good wife, a good friend, a good family member. i try to listen when you just need someone to listen to you. i try to give you advice. granted sometimes it may not be best of advice and that is just it advice it is up to you if you want to follow that advice or not. so when that advice doesnt help you dont take it out on me. sometimes i may speak before i get my thoughts gather up and i know sometimes that is not a good thing. i know i do not have the perfect grammer. i know i do not speak to well or spell to well. and yes i am shy person until i get to know you better and can trust. you may wonder this when we first met in person (that is if you do not already know me pretty good) and that is because when i was younger i was always made fun of because i have never been good at spelling or pronouncing things or having prefect grammer. but this is me. i dont have perfect grammer, i am a honest person, i try to be a good wife and friend and family member. i am there for you when you need me to be. this is me and if you do not like me then dont be friends with me. because i am not going to change who i am. i love who i am and i am happy. my wonderful hubby is happy and he loves who i am. and to me that is all that counts. but to be friend is to know me and to understand me.

okay i know that probably didnt make sense to any of you but that is okay.