why i am thankful

i have been seeing where people are saying what they are thankful for. well i am just making one thing of what all i am thankful for.

i am thankful for my friends who has been there for me though this deployment and who has just been a shoulder to lean on (even though we havent sit down and talk in person. you have been there for me thru the internet)

i am thankful for my family. no matter how much we get on each other nerves (i know we all get on each other nerves) you have still been there for me when i needed you.

i am thankful to have my life and left. and to have God in my life.

i am thankful to have a home

and most important i am thankful to have mike in my life. i do not know where i would be if it wasnt for him. i am thankful that he is brave, strong and has courage to do something that protects us all.

a update that is long time in coming

okay this update is in a long time in coming. i may have told you this before but i am not to sure and i dont want to go back though the months to see. but if i have there is more to it lol. okay back in april we was told that this friend of friend of one of my nieces and nephews was wanting to give up their twins and they wanted to see if we would adopt them. i said yes i didnt have think about it. i didnt have to ask mike about it because i knew we wanted to lol. i told them that just let me know when they wanted to meet up so we could talk and i can get to the adoption agency that said they would help us and get it all started. i waited and waited. i asked my niece if she had heard anything and she asked her friend and they said that their friend was saying they needed more time. and this had done been a month of waiting. and i waited some more and some more and i never heard anything more. you know i am not upset that the birthmother changed her mind. she has that right to. and if she feels like that is what is best for those babies then that is what is best for them. but i think what really upset me the most about this. is that they kept saying they needed more time and no i was not bugging them about this. i gave them time. and i kept given time and they just never said anything to me that they changed their. i just want to take this chance to say this to any birthmothers that is reading this please if you change you mind if it is a private adoption or just something you are just thinking about doing and you know someone that you would like to adopt and then you change you mind after telling them. please please let them know that you change your mind. i promise you that they will understand. yes it will hurt but that hurt will not last as long if you would just tell them. okay now on to another one. well a few months ago (aug to be exact and i think it was around my birthday) i was asked if i wanted to adopt the baby of family member of a friend. and i said she but i would need to know if this is a for sure thing and that both birthparents wanted the baby to be adopted (because some part of me felt like the birthfather didnt want to do that. that he wanted to raise that baby his self). well it has been what 3 months now and i have not heard anything on this one. so it is safe to assume that we are not going to adopt this baby. yes the adoption process is a struggle. but i know in the end it will be worth it all. mike and i have talked about it and we want to give the fertility shots a try. but we are still not giving up our dream of adoption. we will have our little bundle of joy or joys one day. maybe even by this time next year.

nov already

can you believe it is nov already. in a couple of weeks i will be back in texas. well about a week and half i will be back in texas. looking for a place to live and then waiting on our stuff. nov is going to be a busy month i just hope with it being a busy month that it will go by fast lol. okay least see what all is going to go on this month. got to pack, clean, and paint and clean up after that. got a baby shower that i am planning for my cousin this saturday. that should be fun. and moving, finding a place to live, getting a place to live, getting our stuff, and unpacking. yep i got a busy month ahead of me. but it will be okay though. i need something to do pass the time lol.

okay oct was a semi busy month for me. packed biggest part of my house up in oct. actually i think i done it in about a week or a week and half at least something like that. i paid off some little bills. that is going to help us out so much. and i am glad that we was able to pay them off. been sick some to. between allergies, a stomach virus, a cold and joint pain it was alittle rough but i got though it all. i also got my christmas shopping for my family done in oct. now i just need to get them wrapped and leave them at my parents house for everyone to open on christmas morning. yep that is pretty much the month of oct for me. oh yeah i found out in oct that i lost 10 pounds since june. i am so happy about that. maybe i can loose a little more in the next month or two but for right now i am happy with 10 pounds.

okay as i said nov is going to a busy month for me. i hope that i will not stay sick this month alot like i have been because i need to get all this done. well i am going to go but i hope you all are doing good and if i dont get to tell you on thanksgiving HAPPY THANKSGIVING i hope you all have a safe and wonderful thanksgiving.