saying bye to 2012

here is a good bye to 2012. i can not believe that tomorrow will be 2013. where has this year gone. been alot of up and downs for myself and my family this year. my sister lost her hubby. my brother got a divorced. mike and i didnt get pregnant this year like we was hoping to. there was alot of good things also. like being able to spend the fourth of july with our family. being able to spend our anniversary together. being able to spend our birthdays together even though i was sick on my and still recovering from that kidney stone surgery on mike's birthday. i had my follow up appointment for that on friday and it went good. he told me that the kidney stone that i had was Calcium oxalate stones. he told me that i need to make sure i drink plenty of water. and that if i get another one i will have to have more tests done. i hope and pray i never get one. i hope and pray that no one gets a kidney stone. those things are not fun. even though i did not have alot of pain with my kidney stone. but i know alot of people who has had a lot of pain with them.

what i hope 2013 will bring. lets see first of all i hope that it brings happiest and peace to my family and friends. i hope that the family members or friends that are going thru a tough time will find peace and strength. second i hope that 2013 will bring mike and i a baby. we want to be parents so much and we can not wait.

well we know that 2013 will bring a new bundle of joy in lives in the form of our great nephew. he is suppose to be born a round easter and we are going to go in and spend time with family for easter and hopefully be able to meet our new little nephew. that little guy is going to be spoilt rotten lol.

last but not least to our readers. we hope that you have a very happy new year (and you stay safe with what ever you have planned to bring in the new year) and we hope that 2013 brings you peace, happiest, and joy.

love to all our family and friends and to our readers. 

edited to add some photos from dec 31, 2012 our last photos of us for 2012.

merry christmas / happy holidays

merry Christmas and to those who doesn't celebrate Christmas. happy holidays to you. i hope you all are having a wonderful time this holiday season and that you are staying safe. mike and i are doing wonderful. things are going great. we are not that bad stressed this year. we are still alittle worried about my grandmother though. she is still in the hospital. it seems like she has pretty much been in there this whole month. at first they didnt think she was going to make it but so far she has. she started to do alittle better and then last night we heard her oxygen level started to go down again so they had to put her on oxygen again. but so far we havent heard anything else about her. i hope she at least hangs in there until after christmas. i kind think that maybe what she is doing but we will see. the only thing we can do is pray that god does what he knows is best for my grandmother. okay other then that things are great.

we are hoping and wishing that somethings comes true. but we will see. we can only pray about them but it is all good things though. hopefully either in feb or march we can share it with everyone (that is if it is really good news lol) so keep a watch out for those months and see what i update you all about lol.

well i am going to go but i just wanted to take the time to wish everyone a merry christmas and happy holidays. (i will write a new years blog on the 31st. )

On Instagram

I just wanted to write about this Instagram problem or whatever you want to call it. Yes I did have it installed on my iPad and iPhone. I had seen where they had the new terms and agreement up like a day or two ago. But I hadn't read it until a friend on twitter had shared the cnet report on it and decided to read it. After I had read it I deleted my account. Then after I had deleted my account some friends on Facebook was telling me that they hadn't meant to put that in there ( the part about them being able to sell your photos). This what I have to say about that. It seems funny to me that they had that terms and agreement up for all to read for a day or two ( I want to say two days maybe a little longer. But I do know that it was up yesterday ) and they are just now saying that they did not mean for that to be in there until after cnet reported on it. You know what I have to say that if they didnt mean for that to be in there why not have said something before today. They are just trying to cover their butts on that. And yes they will go back and reword all that so you will not understand what you are agreeing to. I will not use that app or support that app any more. Yes I know Facebook is the ones that owns it now and I am in the process of going thru my photos on there and deleting some as I do not feel like anyone should sell my photos but me if I so choose to do so. My photos is just for me to share with my family and friends ( just my family and friends). I really do not want to delete any but I am going to. It makes me mad that I have to limit what I share with my family and friends when I live so far from my family and friends. I love sharing what goes on with mike and I with our family and friends and I am going to try my hardest to share some of the important things with them.

some pictures of mike and i

i realized that i havent added any new photos of mike and i. so i thought i would add some that i took today. the top photo was taken at the park and the bottom photo was taken in the hall in our home. i am thinking of using them in a photo project for my online photography class i am taken. i think they may work but not to sure about the bottom one. but here you go. a new photos of mike and i.

in hardship comes strength

in hardship comes strength. i thought that was a good title for a blog and something to good to write about at this time. yes yesterday was a very sad day and those families and friends of those families and just that town period will be sad and depressed for a while. but i know that there will be a day that will come that they will see that they have strength. you do not realize the strength that you have until you go thru a hardship. and you may not realize the strength that some one else has until they go thru a hardship (no i am not talking about physical strength. i am not talking about emotional, mental strength.) i have seen people in my family go thru some hardship this year. i seen my sister and her kids loose her husband and their father but i have witness and is amazed at the strength that they have shown. i have seen family members go thru a divorce and the strength that they have learnt that they have from that. i have seen family members struggle with money problems and they are getting thru that and yes that have the strength to get thru it. like with mike and i we have struggle with infertility every since we got married (which so far it has been 8 and half years of trying) and i am surprised that we have not broken down at all. i am amazed at the strength that i have during this time. yes i know some people might say that is nothing come paired to other things that is going on in this world but let me tell you if you have never struggled with infertility you do not know what it is like. you do not know the up and downs you can have with each month of finding out that you are not going to be a parent. i hope and pray that no one has to go thru all this. i hope and pray that one day people will stop killing others. but i do have to believe that until that day comes that we are here for a reason and to learn what kind of strength we do have. and you know where that strength comes from. i do, in my heart i believe that god gives us what he knows we can handle and sometimes he shows how much strength we truly have in ways  that is difficult for us in that moment to go thru but he shows us.

now i want to take the time to say this, dont just use yesterday or day or the next few days to see how and be thankful of how blessed you are. do it everyday. tell your love ones that you love them as much as you. yes they may get tired of you saying all day long but dont ever let them walk out the door or hang up the phone without telling them you love them. as you can never tell what will happen. always kiss your kids and your spouse good night. always be there for you family and friends when they need you. no it doesnt take money to be there for them. all it takes is just being there. letting them know you are thinking of them. and remember you have the strength to get thru anything. oh and dont let a tragedy alone bring you together. come together everyday.

sometimes i wonder

sometimes i wonder if i really have friends out there that care that mike and i are struggling to have a baby. i wonder if there are people out there who really knows how it feels to struggle just to become parents. i think that if they did they wouldnt say the things they say. or pick sorten friends to pray that they have a baby or anything like that. yes it hurts to see someone who i thought was a friend to tell a mutual friend that they are praying for them to have a baby. what about mike and i. we would like some prayers in that department to. is it wrong to feel this way. i dont think so. it just makes me feel like this friend doesnt care for me or care how much we want to be parents. yeah we may not be putting it all over facebook or other social media every single day that we want to be parents. we do not cry over spilled milk (i guess that is a good quote for this ). but we still would love to be parents. we would make wonderful parents. i am not saying that this friend that is struggling with infertility issues doesnt deserve to be a parent again because they do. because they are wonderful parents. i am just that if a person or people has more then more friend that is struggling to have a baby dont just single one friend out. include all them because let me tell you you are going to hurt someone's feelings just like my was tonight.

ugh yep as you can see today has not been a good day. oh top of this and that other entry i posted today i heard of a newborn baby that was left in the bathroom at a walmart here in texas. that is so heartbreaking to hear. they say the baby was most likely stillborn but that still doesn make it right that the mother just left that baby there and didnt get help for it or her. i hope they find out who the mother was. because she needs to be held for the wrong she done. i dont care if you are scared to tell anyone or that you didnt know that you was pregnant it is wrong to leave a little bitty baby anywheres like that and it is wrong not to get help. i really think that we need to start teaching our kids that there are options out there. if you are not ready to be a parent then place that baby up for adoption. adoption will be better in the long for that baby then leaving it in a bathroom or somewhere like that.

is about to just stop being there for people

i just want to say that this is not about one person or anything like that. it is in general. for the pass month or so there has been people who has asked for my point of view or advice about well anything really and it just seems like if they dont like what i say they just throw it back in my face. why ask for my thoughts if you didnt want to listen to them. i am not say that you have to have the same thoughts, same opinions, or the same views as me. can you image what this world would be like if we all had the same thoughts, same opinions, and the same views. i am just tired of being asked for my thoughts or views, or opinions and it getting throwed  back in my face. oh this is one of my less favorite things to hear.  " you dont have kids so your thoughts, opinions, or view doesnt count because you dont know what it is like" you know i may not have kids but i do have thoughts, opinions, or views when it comes to kids, when it comes to raising them. yes i know having nieces and nephews is not the same as having your own child but you know i have been a aunt for nearly 20 years now and i know what in some ways what it is like to raise a child. i am saying that i would be the prefect parent no but who is. there is no prefect parent or no prefect way to raise a child. you do the best that you can and hope that they turn out to be the kind, gentle, loving, honest adult you want them to be. (i do have to say that i have pretty much deleted people out of my life who has said that to me because i do love my nieces and nephews like they where my own. and they know i will always be there for them. after all there is a saying that it takes a village to raise a child and i would like to think that i have helped my brother and sister out when they needed it by being there for my nieces and nephews when they needed someone to talk to when they couldnt (and still can) talk to their parents. and i know that my brother and sister will be there for mike's and i kids when we do have them.

as that is said i am really starting to get to the point where i am just going to stop given my thoughts, opinions, or view about something. and if anyone wonder why i do not help them anyone well now they know why know.

just had to get that off of my chest. thanks for listen (well reading lol)

family

i have been seeing alot of people going thru family drama and i just wanted to share the meaning of the word family to everyone.

Family

1 a. a basic social unit consisting of parents and their children, considered as a group, whether dwelling together or not: the traditional family.

b.a social unit consisting of one or more adults together with the children they care for: a single-parent family.

2.the children of one person or one couple collectively: We want a large family.

3.the spouse and children of one person: We're taking the family on vacation next week.

4.any group of persons closely related by blood, as parents, children, uncles, aunts, and cousins: to marry into a socially prominent family.

5.all those persons considered as descendants of a common progenitor.

that was the meaning of family. now to tell you how i feel what a family is. a family is people who care about one other. loves you unconditional no matter what that person does (yes a person does have their limits though). family is there for you when you need them.

now that is family. maybe getting this out it will help some people and maybe it wont who knows. but i do think if you are a adult you need to set examples for your young kids in how to be adult and that means dont be fighting with your daughter, mother, father, brother, son, or sister, or even a greatparent or aunts and uncles.

dec already

it's dec already where has this year gone. it has seemed like it has went by really fast. just what 30 days until new year eves. the time is going by really fast. we dont have much planned for the month of dec. just mike's birthday on tuesday. he will finally be caught up with me in age and we will be the same age for like 8 months lol. i have my post op appointment this month to but that isnt until dec 28. i wish it was sooner but i guess that was all they had open up. but the way the days are going by fast it will be here before we know it. i hope he tells me that i am all healed up. i seemed to be doing fine. i do have my good days and bad days. more good days then bad. i will just be glad when i get to feeling 100% but then again i dont i ever really felt a 100% before all that happened. but i will get back to where i have more energy. 

other then christmas and new year eves we do not have much planned this month. i hope we can go on this train ride this month. that is just something i really would like to do. and right not it isnt to hot and plus it isnt to cold neither and doesnt seem like it is going to get cold anytime soon lol. i am trying to get caught up on my photography schooling. when i got sick like i did (and let me tell you having a kidney stone can drain you. especailly if they just keep telling you that it is a infection.) i just didnt feel up to doing any studying or taken pictures. i think if i hadnt gotten sick that i would be half way thru unit 3 or completely thru it one. then that would have made me half way thru my schooling. there is 6 units of lessons. (i forgot the total amount of lessons though) but nope i am not half way thru the schooling. i think i am getting close to being half way thru unit 2. but i am making it up. now just got to start taken the pictures for the photo project. i think i have photo that might work but not to sure. going to read back over what the photos are suppose to be (well they can be of anything but just have to follow like their guide lines of how they would like the see photo). but other then that the schooling is going good. i passed my first test and did a good job on my first photo project.

okay there is something else that we need to get done this month and that is sending all this babyshower gifts and decorations for our niece's babyshower because we will not get to go to in Jan. besides the fact that mike will not be able to take time off of work for it but we will not have the money for travel. but we are hoping that come march (easter. yep easter is in march next year (was fixing to say this year lol))  we will get to go back home for a visit. after all our great nephew will be borned around that time and we will get to see him and to us that is more special. even though we really wish we could be there for the babyshower but our great nephew is more special then the showing. getting to see him, hold, and give him a hug and a kiss is more special. oh how i can not wait to see him. i already love the little guy so much.

well that is the update for now. but i will try to update you more later on. maybe something excited will happen and i can write about that. or if i can think of a topic to write about i will write then. until then i hope you all have a wonderful month of dec.