part 3 of pcaos awareness

part 3 of pcos awareness and probably my last post on this subject until next september.  this post is going to be about my experience with it.
my experience could be the same as some others but this is my experience. ( dont forget that pcos is going to effect each young girl and woman different. there maybe some that may go thru the same as you but everyone feels differently about each experience) my experience with it some days very frustrating and others not so frustrated. there are some days i dont know if it is the pcos or my thyroid problem one that is making me feel the way i do or if it is both of them. on the days i get up and my clothes are tight on me i get so frustrated. and the days that i have shave parts of my body that no woman should have to shave. it all is so frustrated. now i am not ashamed of it but i do wish that it wasnt happening to my body. yes i can feel that way and not be ashamed of it to. why should i be  ashamed of my medical problems. that is almost like telling someone who has something worse that they should be ashamed of their medical condition. i get to loosing weight and then i just get so tired that there are days i just dont want to get up and go (this part could be because of my thyroid problem.) just about every doctor i have seen for the pcos has put me on metformin. even though i have told them and told them that i can not take it. it doesnt work on me. i am staying sick on even after a few months of taken it i stay sick on it. and to me that isnt healthy. i finally got a doctor last year to listen to me when i say i cant take it. had to prove it to them but they finally listen.  there has been times thru out the years that i have felt like i have failed as a woman by not becoming pregnant. yes i am one of the ones that suffer from infertility with pcos (not everyone with pcos suffer thru infertility but that is probably a select few out of a hundred lol. well dont know the exact amount. ) if you follow my blog here you will see my struggles with infertility. i just wish that i could just become pregnant so much. i want to be a mommy so much that my heart breaks at times. at least that is how it feels. i think that is the most frustrating part of pcos is the infertility. i am glad that i have a good support system in mike (he has been my biggest supporter thru out it all. ) and my family and friends and the group of ladies that i talk to with pcos. hopefully one day soon i can get my weight under control and i cay get the symptoms of pcos under control also.