i know i usually wait until the end of the month to write a blog to update you all . but as the next week or so is going to be very busy for me i just wanted to take the time to update you all. we are doing good just staying busy. allergies are just acting up again and this time it is effecting my ears pretty good. yesterday was the worse though. so hopefully tomorrow will be better on that front. i am almost finished with the decorations for the wedding shower i am throwing for my cousin. i was going to use real flowers but i may wand up just buying some fake flowers to finish up on the decoration. because i have other things i need to get for the wedding shower like food. what is a party without food lol. and plus my mom and i are giving my oldest nephew a graduation party the sunday after the wedding shower. and all this is going to take place in a week. can you believe that we have a 18 year old nephew and he is graduating. actually we have two 18 year old nephews. dang i am getting old lol. the pass month has been almost like a roller coaster i guess you could say. lost a friend but i guess if she was actually a true friend she would have agree to disagree on our bliefs. instead of just deleting me from her life. that she also could have messaged me to let me know that she was deleting me. but i do believe it is because i have different bliefs then her and i showed it but oh well. not going to cry over spilled milk. because i will not change what i believe in to make others happy. i know i am probably misspelling something here and i am sorry for that. never been good at spelling. and i know i will never be good at it so you will have to over look it.
june is going to be a busy month for me. got my youngest niece's birthday party. also got the alice in wonderland tea party i am throwing for a girls day. hmm wondering if i could come up with a girls night just for the adults lol. maybe i will plan that for august or sept one lol. i know i am not going to plan one in july got to do some relaxing on that part at least for myself on giving the parties myself. now if someone wants my help in planning a party hey just ask away and i maybe able to help you. yeah i have been thinking of starting a party planning business but i do not want to go into business by myself because i know it would be harder then what it would be if you went into business with someone else. because then you can half up the work load lol. and other reason why is because as mike being in the military it would be harder to be in a business with someone with us moving around. so i will have to wait. but i would be nice though.
well that is the update for now. if i can get a chance between parties i will update again. i hope you all are doing good and that you all have a wonderful summer.
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Thursday, May 19, 2011
Saturday, May 7, 2011
a debate i have been having with some friends
okay here is a debate i have been having with some friends. and in some ways some friends has kind of made me feel bad for what i believe in and has really what you say been preaching at me about this. and i feel like they should not be preaching to people. i was raised to not preach to people. let them believe in what they want and i believe in what i want and not to judge. and yes in someways i do feel like i am being judge for what i believe in. okay you maybe wondering what the debate is. here it is.
the debate is whether or not sex is an important of a any relationship but mainly a marriage. and i have to disagree on this. and i have to disagree that god designed sex to be important of marriage. i do not believe that is it. even though i can not have children i believe that god designed sex for you to concieve. yes i do believe in birthcontrol. i have taken birthcontrol before. i think that sex does not solve problems that are in a marriage. and if you say that you are having sex with your husband or wife because it something they want. that it makes them happy. let me rephase this. if you have sex only when your husband or wife wants to have sex. even if you are not in the mood for but you do it anyways to make them happy that is wrong. what about your happiest. i can tell you this love having sex and i love having sex with mike. the lord knows i do but we both understand when one of us is not in the mood we do not have sex. we also do not have sex to solve our problems. you may say that is not what you are doing and it could be true. and rightly i really dont care if you are having sex to solve your problems. that is your business not my. but that is what i believe in. i have never not once said that no one should never sex at all. i never said and there is some people that in some ways are trying to say i said that and i have never said that. but i do not think that sex is a important of a marriage just a bonus.
the debate is whether or not sex is an important of a any relationship but mainly a marriage. and i have to disagree on this. and i have to disagree that god designed sex to be important of marriage. i do not believe that is it. even though i can not have children i believe that god designed sex for you to concieve. yes i do believe in birthcontrol. i have taken birthcontrol before. i think that sex does not solve problems that are in a marriage. and if you say that you are having sex with your husband or wife because it something they want. that it makes them happy. let me rephase this. if you have sex only when your husband or wife wants to have sex. even if you are not in the mood for but you do it anyways to make them happy that is wrong. what about your happiest. i can tell you this love having sex and i love having sex with mike. the lord knows i do but we both understand when one of us is not in the mood we do not have sex. we also do not have sex to solve our problems. you may say that is not what you are doing and it could be true. and rightly i really dont care if you are having sex to solve your problems. that is your business not my. but that is what i believe in. i have never not once said that no one should never sex at all. i never said and there is some people that in some ways are trying to say i said that and i have never said that. but i do not think that sex is a important of a marriage just a bonus.
Thursday, May 5, 2011
its that time of year again
yep it is that time of year again where all you hear is happy mother's day. see mother's day signs in the stores. no i will not be celebrating mother's day again this year. i will not go to my parents on sunday. i will carry my mother her mother's day gift from mike and i on saturday but on sunday i will not be going anywheres. i will not even be getting on the computer to much because i do not want to see everyone wishing their friends are mothers a happy mother's day. i get way you that has kids or that are pregnant are celebrating. and i am happy for you all but be alittle respectful to the one that are trying to become a mommy but has failed time after time. and who wants to be a mommy so much. i know that may sound mean to some but it is hard each year that goes by and i am not a mommy. i do not wish this on no one. it is hard to pretend be happy when i am not. yes there are things in my life that are happy but this where i can not get pregnant makes me unhappy. some of you may know how i feel and some of you may not. if you dont dont say anything. dont even say that it will happen when it is time. do not say that god will grant you a child when he feels you are ready. because in truth you do not know what god has in store for us. and i am just tired of hearing that. do you think that god wants to see his child's (we all are children of god) heart breaking because she can not be a mommy. no i do not believe he does and i do not believe that he is withholding a child of my own from me. i feel that in my heart. i do not want to hear do not stress and do not think about just relax. let me tell you there has been plenty of times i have been relaxed and it hasnt happened. and look at the people who have had so much stress in their life and has never relaxed and they have children. and i do not want to hear if you have sex at this time of the month or that time of the month you will get pregnant. i also do not want to hear just quit trying and it will happen. just respect me on my decision of skipping mother's day and of my feelings even on other days. if the only thing you can is one of those things then dont say nothing at all. i know this may make some mad and you may not want to be my friend after this and that is okay that is your right. but it is my right to not to celebrate and think of myself on theses days. and like i also said before if you have never been though any kind of fertility issues you do not have the right to say anything at all because you do not know what it is like. you do not know how much your heart breaks each day, month, year that goes by and you do not have a little one in your arms. be thankful of that.
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