it is getting to be really hard

it is getting to be really hard watching friend after friend having babies. some has had more then pregnancy though out these 7 years that mike and i have been trying to have baby. it hurts. i am not saying that i am not happy for my friends but it is just hard. because i want to be pregnant and be a mommy to. i am very happy for my friends. i know some have had problems with getting pregnant but they still get pregnant though. i know in some ways they know how i feel. but in someways they dont. because it hasnt been 7 years of trying for them like it has for mike and i. yes i know theses deployments are not helping with us getting pregnant. and i know some people probably thinks i shouldnt count those long long long months of being apart as part of our trying to get pregnant but i do. it is just so hard. i can hear people already. oh it will happen for you dont give up. you go 7 years of trying to get pregnant and see how you feel about it. i can hear people say it will happen when you are ready. umm hello mike and i are ready to be parents. we have always been ready to be parents. in truth who is really ready to be parents. i know some people make this is mean of me saying this but i just wish it was mike and i that was having a baby.