it's nov

yes i know that nov is almost half over with by now and i should have posted this earlier this month but i was trying to wait until we had some answers on what is going on. every since like the last of aug (my birthday) i have been having some problems with my body. at first i thought it was just a bad uti (and it possible still could turn out to be that. that is what we are hoping for anyways). i did had a appointment with a urologist on last tuesday but they sent me to the wrong clinic. i was suppose to have went to this one clinic that was like 20 to 30 minutes away and we knew we would have never made it in time for my appointment so i just had it reschedule. so i go tomorrow to see the urologist. i really hope that we can start to find out what is going on tomorrow and that it isnt to serious. but i am really scared that it is going to turn out be something really serious. i hope not but i am so scared that it is. mike has been my rock during this time. yes i know he is worried for me but he has helped to keep my spirits up. until we find out what is going on we have put the trying that last round of fertility treatments on hold. who knows it may turn out that we wont be able to try them so we will just move on to adoption. we have planned on adopting anyways if the fertility treatments worked or not but it may just turn out that we may have to move up the plan for adoption sooner then we had planned. i guess now is the time to start thinking of away to pay for adoption. adoption isnt cheap lol but that is okay we will get it all figured out.

well i guess that is it for a update right now. i will try to update what we learn from the doctor tomorrow (that is if we find out any answers tomorrow) if not tomorrow then as soon as we find out something. i hope you all are doing good and if you pray please pray for me. pray the strength i will need for what ever the out come is and pray for healing. and also please pray for mike also. i know it is my body  i am not the only that is going though this what ever it is because mike is here with me to.