sometimes i wonder

sometimes i wonder if i really have friends out there that care that mike and i are struggling to have a baby. i wonder if there are people out there who really knows how it feels to struggle just to become parents. i think that if they did they wouldnt say the things they say. or pick sorten friends to pray that they have a baby or anything like that. yes it hurts to see someone who i thought was a friend to tell a mutual friend that they are praying for them to have a baby. what about mike and i. we would like some prayers in that department to. is it wrong to feel this way. i dont think so. it just makes me feel like this friend doesnt care for me or care how much we want to be parents. yeah we may not be putting it all over facebook or other social media every single day that we want to be parents. we do not cry over spilled milk (i guess that is a good quote for this ). but we still would love to be parents. we would make wonderful parents. i am not saying that this friend that is struggling with infertility issues doesnt deserve to be a parent again because they do. because they are wonderful parents. i am just that if a person or people has more then more friend that is struggling to have a baby dont just single one friend out. include all them because let me tell you you are going to hurt someone's feelings just like my was tonight.

ugh yep as you can see today has not been a good day. oh top of this and that other entry i posted today i heard of a newborn baby that was left in the bathroom at a walmart here in texas. that is so heartbreaking to hear. they say the baby was most likely stillborn but that still doesn make it right that the mother just left that baby there and didnt get help for it or her. i hope they find out who the mother was. because she needs to be held for the wrong she done. i dont care if you are scared to tell anyone or that you didnt know that you was pregnant it is wrong to leave a little bitty baby anywheres like that and it is wrong not to get help. i really think that we need to start teaching our kids that there are options out there. if you are not ready to be a parent then place that baby up for adoption. adoption will be better in the long for that baby then leaving it in a bathroom or somewhere like that.