i am done with making wishes.

i am so tired of wishing for things to happen for us that we would love to have had happen or happen to us. what is wishing getting us nothing. so i am done with making wishes. i am just going to live my life to best that i can (and i know mike feels the sameway as me) am i saying i am given up on our dream of becoming parents. no i am not but i am done with wishing for it. i am done wishing for it on the first star i see at night. i am doing wishing for it when blowing out birthday candles, i am doing wishing for it at 11:11 because wishing is not getting us anywheres. the pass few weeks we have been though alot. now in about six months things will be changing for us. mike is getting out of the army in six months. we are hoping that he will be able to get back into the national guard. hopefully we will be able to hear something on that some time soon. and also hopefully he will be able to find a job between now and sept. because if he doesnt i dont know what we will do. but i am not wishing that he will find a job also. i am just feeling like wishing it is going to jinx us. i also just feel like there is someone or someones out that that is wishing for the bad things to happen to us because it just seem like that it is one thing after another. if we had known that the things that has happened this week was going to happen we would have never went on that weekend trip. hopefully this new adventure of going back to the national guard will be a good one for us. i just want good things to start happening for us to. i want good things to happen for our family. i am just tired of feel like a complete failure. so i will say it again i am done with making wishes.