renewing our vows

we are going to be renewing our wedding vowels on our 10th wedding anniversary which that is like a little over a year away. and yes we have been talking about this and thinking about ideas every since like our first or second year of marriage. and the only reason we started to thinking and talking about it then is because we really didnt have the wedding we wanted. i think the only thing that we really enjoyed was the getting married part lol. i didnt get to pick out my dress myself. i am very grateful for my aunt that picked it out and mailed it to us. but it really wasnt nothing that special. didnt really make me feel like a bride. in other words i settled for a dress and when you are getting married you shouldnt settled for a dress. you should get a dress that makes you feel like a bride and that you love.  we couldnt find anywheres to get married outside so we settled for a church wedding. nothing wrong with a church wedding and we are very happy that we got married in a church (but it wasnt what we really wanted. (another thing that makes me a little happy that we got married in a church is that pretty much everyone in our family got married either outside or in a place like a community center or something like that and not a church. so i am glad we was different in that department. ) i didnt get pick my our maid of honor. my mom told me that my sister was going to be my maid of honor because who else are you going to ask. well i was thinking of asking one of my cousins to be my maid of honor or my oldest niece and that is what i said. my mom said well your oldest niece isnt old enough to be a maid of honor. and that the cousin i had in mind probably wouldnt do it or something like that. i should have stuck to my guns and picked someone else. we also didnt get to use the colors that we wanted when we first told everyone our colors they said that those colors didnt work. so we picked something else out. and everyone still didnt like those colors but we just gotten to the point that we didnt care what others thought. but we couldnt find the colors we wanted in decoration wise so we just went with colors that we could find and afford. so yep we are now going to be renewing our wedding vowels and i can not wait. we know we want it to be outside this time. we dont know the time we want to go about doing it but we know we want it out side. i plan on having two dresses and the only reason for this is that i want a ball gown. a gown that is going to make me feel like a bride and a princess at the same time (or should i say queen since i am in my 30s and we are already married lol) but mike wants to see me in a dress that is more fitted. so we compromise. that i will get the ball gown for the ceremony part and the fitted dress for the reception part. i am pretty sure i have the ceremony dress all picked out, i just got to pick out the fitted dress. i am thinking about going to some bridal salons. and look at some fitted dresses and go from there. now we got to figure out what kind of flowers we want and other decorations. or like a theme one. (which i kind of think we are going to go with the country theme. as we both love the country and will live out in the country again one day.)  i am thinking about something blue. that color is drawing to me. and we got to figure out wedding music to. and if we want to have a wedding party. if we decide on a wedding party it will be the people we really want to be in the wedding party and they will have to pay for their own clothing lol.  i want to try to keep the budget as low as possible but i want to have a really nice wedding with all our family and friends there (this part of our wedding makes me a little sad because we invited 100 people to our wedding and only like 10 people, not include their kids. maybe we did count their kids to, showed up to our wedding. so that makes me really sad.) we had even asked one of my uncles to sing in the wedding and they said no. that kind of hurt because i would have loved it and it would have made our wedding special. i have this feeling that this uncle we asked went to another of my cousin's wedding who was getting married the day after we did. which when we set the date for our wedding we didnt know this. if we had we probably would have picked another date. but anyways, we will not be asking family to sing in our wedding at all. we will just pick out some music and leave it up to a cd player or something like that.

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