feeling like someone is talking about me.

have you ever just had that feeling that someone is talking about you. i have been having that feeling for the pass few days. it is a very irritating feeling. you know what i have to say to theses people talking about me. talk all you want because in the end that is showing who you really are. i try my hardest not to talk about people or even judge them but it just seems like here lately people are talking about me or judging me (yes this is how i have been feeling and usually your feelings has some truth in them). i was raised to do unto others as you want them to do unto you. so if you want my respect then respect me. because i do try to respect others. i hate feeling like people are talking about me. it never feels though. i had people talking about me and making fun of me as a kid. i also try not to gossip about other people but people are doing that about me and about some people i know. you know if one person would just step back and say hey how would i feel if some one was talking about me or spreading rumors about me to others. (rumors and gossip and talking about people goes hand in hand doesnt it) i bet they would think that it would hurt them and that they have feelings to. then maybe they just wouldnt spread things around. also it only takes one person not to carry on those gossip and rumors (you know continue to spread it around). then maybe just maybe it would all stop but then again it wont stop because there is always going to be someone out there who is going to say something about someone. and it is a never ending story. at least that is how it seems. you know i hardly ever talk about others as i know it hurts but sometimes i do let my feelings out towards people. but i know that if i do not vent or let my feelings out about how others are doing me it is going to eat me from the inside and until i have anxiety attack. i have been there and i will never go there again. so if anyone sees where i vent to other friends about something and think you know who or what i am talking about think before you go around talking about me. maybe my feelings has been hurt and i need to vent it out sometimes.

hmm i guess that is a little bit all over the place a little isnt it. sorry about that. it just gets me that people assume things about me or about what i say and then go and twist it around to what ever their mind wants to make it be. again i hate the feeling that someone is talking about me. and i hate gossip and rumors. but like i said to those who are out there talking about me. just know that in the end it is just really showing who you really are. i will continue to be the person i am (which i am just now finding that person again. actually i found that person again when i meet mike. he has helped me find who i was and i am very grateful for him. keep a look out for a blog about him and our relationship it will be coming in a few weeks as it will be our anniversary in a few weeks so can not wait. so keep a look out for that blog. )