niaw is almost over with

i can not believe that national infertility awareness week is almost with. just today and tomorrow. but truthfully for me it will never be over. well i should say for us it will never be over with. it isnt just a week that we are dealing with it. it is a everyday struggle for us. but it is nice to have a week to try to spread the word about infertility and to get people to see that it is nothing to be ashamed of.  times has changed. we are not stuck in the pass where it had to be kept a secret. where you couldnt express how you was feeling about not being able to become parents. you had to keep it quiet. you couldnt even talk about it with your family or friends. i am so glad that the times has changed. and that we can be open about our struggle. i stop and think of how lucky i am that we are in this time and not in the past. i dont know what i would be doing if we was living in the past. how did those couples get thru it. even though we are more open (we are open with our struggle then what we was but we had never kept it a secret) now about our struggle then when we first started trying it is still hard. some days seems easier then others but it is still hard. like yesterday was a okay day. even though i started a new cycle i only cried for alittle bit and not all day about it like i use to. mike is talking to me more about and expressing his feelings of when we start a new cycle and such like that. i know that is one thing that is helping the most is that we both are talking to each other and not hiding our feelings from each other. we are also getting our story out there. i do not feel ashamed of struggle thru infertility. yes there for a while i did feel ashamed of it. but i am not anymore. i am embracing it as it is part of me. part of my life story. it is one of the things that i have struggled thru (still struggling) but it is making me stronger. i can see that now. and i will never let anyone make me feel like i should be ashamed of it or that i shouldnt share my story. this is me. i am a infertile and our journey is making us stronger and we will embrace it because it is who we are.
you know the saying i am woman hear me roar. well i am a infertile hear me roar.